@Autistic_Lauren Really depends on the hospital and why I'm there. Usually they're overwhelming, too many people, lights are too bright. Also, I hate waiting and hospitals are usually places where I have to wait really really long.
@Autistic_Lauren About 15 years ago I started making jokes about how I always score high on autism tests, but I don't know if that counts because I didn't think I was autistic at that time (I was sure everyone shared my experience). Real realization that I'm autistic was about 6 years ago.
@Autistic_Lauren You're autistic and trans and I thought "cool, me too". Also, I like answering your questions and reading other people's answers to your questions.
@Autistic_Lauren Hated it. I have always been bad at sports and I had a teacher who would always emphasize exactly that. Also, I had to regularly participate in things I was literally scared of (like ice skating or a trip to the high rope course). It was low key traumatizing for me.
@Autistic_Lauren Getting easily overwhelmed by loud noises. I thought, everyone was just really good at coping with the stress and physical discomfort it comes with.
Also the eye contact thing. I thought everybody had to constantly remind themselves to look others in their eyes.
@Autistic_Lauren It feels very infantalizing and I don't like it. I think it also makes being neurodivergent sound fun, when from my experience most of the time it's clearly not.
@Autistic_Lauren I thought that I don't until someone told me to "not shout like that" when I thought I was just talking in my usual talking voice. I more often talk too quiet than too loud though.
@Autistic_Lauren playing video games, learning languages and learning about languages, music (listening to music, singing and playing instruments), handicraft (especially crocheting)
@Autistic_Lauren Scary. I'm always worried that the plane might crash. Also, no matter what I travel with, I need to know that I can escape every moment in time if whatever is going on in the vehicle is too much for me, and I can't just get off a flying plane at every given moment.
Can you have DID without the amnesia part? Asking for, well, me, currently neglecting all the things they planned to do during the holidays and instead exploring a somewhat scary part of my personality structure.
@universevibe_ I have been struggling a lot lately with my inner voice telling me that I cheated when getting my PTSD diagnosis because I cannot actually be traumatized by anything I experienced. This post is exactly what I needed to see to make me feel a little bit less like I'm faking PTSD.
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The most concerning part of this is that all they had to do to become target of teenage me's feelings was to treat me with the kindness and respect I should have been treated with by literally everyone.
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As a teenager I often did what at this time I thought was falling in love with e.g. therapists, doctors or teachers. I later learnt that I never wanted any of them as a partner but rather as a parent.