been eating 1k+ cals a day since and realistically i shouldn't be gaining or even maintaining on that but im so scared for my next weigh-in. pray for me. bmi 20, our time together was a short eleven days and we had so much fun together but please never come back.
i sort of want ppl to know i have an ed but DONT want ppl to worry about me but i DO want people to think about me but i DONT want them to care enough to send me to a hospital but i DO want them to see what im going through but i DONT want them to pity me ๐ค do you follow?
to the point where im almost the same bmi as my average/thinspo tiktok influencer but im still ugly and untalented yeah sounds about right. maybe self improvement was the move after all. #edrtwt
overate past my 500 limit by 680 cals using my period as an excuse today. clocking into the 2am living room step factory to make up for it. FUCKKKKKKKK