Emyle | edtwt | ★⁸

✩ She/her ✩ 22 ✩ “I don’t wanna be here, start fresh with a new year” ✩

[Emyle | edtwt | ★⁸ @Emmy_Eel]

Four years straight of burning at least 500 cals a day

[Emyle | edtwt | ★⁸ @Emmy_Eel]

Two years straight of burning at least 500 cals a day 🥳🥳

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My almond milk is 5 cals less per cup than it always has been guys today a good day

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🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️HAPPY PRIDE MONTH EVERYONE🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍🌈 Ik it’s hard to believe bc of the way eds work and the way the world treats queer ppl, but you’re all loved and valid and beautiful
🤍🩷🩵🖤🤎❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

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@lovlnglyfancy Lmaoooo maybe I’ll have to do that next year 😭 jkjk but fr ty queen ily 🩷🩷🩷

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22nd birthday and all I can think about is how upset I am that I don’t have time to burn 2200 cals

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@pawbbean Omg wait it’s such a cute photo

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Update: I let it die and it’s fine now

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I’ve used the same passcode for my watch for years bc I’m so scared of being locked out, and today Ig I just don’t remembered it anymore bc I can’t fucking figure out what it is wtf

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I can unlocked it with my phone so I’m not fully locked out, but like what if I can’t get in my phone for some reason or I need the passcode for smth??
And I need the passcode to disable or change it, like how am I supposed fix it?? 😭😭

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I’ve used the same passcode for my watch for years bc I’m so scared of being locked out, and today Ig I just don’t remembered it anymore bc I can’t fucking figure out what it is wtf

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I think my Cyndaqu!| has body dysmorphia bc sweet baby in what world is that too small for you to sit on?? 😭😭

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I made a new low cal food in my dream last night and woke up thinking “that was so smart I should actually make that” and immediately forgot it 😭😭

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/lh ofc** no ed is easier/better/less miserable, all eds are valid miserable hellscapes, you can’t just change disorders, etc., etc.

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I’ve decided that I have ana (not ednos) and my primary ed symptom is starving myself (not exercise addiction and hating myself) I’ll keep you guys updated 😄👍

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Like yeah no that’s fine just make me hate myself more and want to manually rip the fat off my bones over a fucking AI photo yeah whatever that’s cool

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The betrayal and anger I feel when I see a th!nsp0 pin on P!ntrest and I click on it and it says “AI modified” is immeasurable

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Or remotely difficult or important or anything at all tbh like sometimes you just talk to people and realize it’ll never be worth trying

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Me every time I talk to my mother about anything even remotely negative💀💀

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@tarobunluvr Omg yummy and aesthetic

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And ofc I don’t blame the customer service workers, they’re following instructions and I’d never be frustrated with them (that’s why I’m ranting here 💀), but it’s been 4 months of back and forth with no actual information or progress I’M TIRED and this happens so often

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Not ed related oops but please can we as a society agree to stop being so corporate and confusing in customer service emails, I’m so tired of hearing “it’s still being investigated” “we will provide appropriate arrangements” just tell me if you’re gonna reship my missing order😭

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Ofc you don’t get to enjoy it, the aftermath sucks, it’d be better to just be normal, it doesn’t even mean you get to stop thinking about the food, the craving could trigger a different binge, etc., but the option is gone
It feels like the closest to “control” about binging I get

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Ik we joke about like “eating all your binge food now so you can’t binge on it later” but like the relief that you don’t have to keep thinking about it being there, and knowing it’s done with and over now, it lowkey almost seems worth it sometimes