I have a whole group of weirdos monitoring my everday life like am a science project. pathetic! This people really have no life they live breath me. Their whole job revolve around keeping up with me. Serious who sent this fucking people. So embarrassing.
It honestly so pathetic that domeone will go as far as stalking, monitoring and even spening there energy daily, literally just to keep up with the next person on so obsessive spying shit. Some people been weird and it never seize to amaze me. Eww!
I really need to take time to just reflect on things little deeper. Think on why I really am the way I am. Sometime it really hard to take accountability for why my life turned out the way it did and it can also be a hard pill to swallow but it necessary
I dont know why people expect me to keep accepting their breadcrumbs or bullshit Wtf be going through people mind to expect me to tolerate abuse and injustice over and fucking over again. They most be smoking shit. Then when I go all apeshit im wrong? 😒
Reasons y I try to treat people how I would like to be treated but when that same respect is not being reciprocated it makes me lose part of my self that I want to hold on to but cant because some people can really bring out the worst in you. #nomoremrniceguy
Ever felt like people have minipulate u or gaslight your experinces to the point where even defending yourself or POV feels impossible? You ever repeated something so much that it start losing it potency. It somehow just become some empty words or excuses ?
Lord only knows how my intention has been misunderstood intentionally this couple of years but im also tired of trying to defend that. Ive become who I swear Im not which is bitter! So fucking bitter just cause of years of mistreating and pain! #Iykyk
it seems as tho some people lack bravery to tell it like it is so they would do things to intentionally hurt me over and over again to the point where I would finally make the decision to stay away when really it was all minipulation for the same outcome.
Sometimes I really wonder, how do people expect anyone in their right mind to react to constant abuse ? Not even just that but trauma that can effect one's life for a very long time!
Moving to my current housing since February 3 2024 was a blessing I never would have look forward to. Just for it to be ruine by being intentionally targeted by some one so disgusting and obsessive has become a fucking hell hole. #iykyk#t.i
Some of my post and old video are so cringe. I swear I would have probably never seen anything wrong with some of my ways if I aint see it myself from the outside looking in. Some much work need to be done. Truly!!
Being combative because am being harshly criticize is a trait I had to get rid of. Being so sensitive was a strength yet a weakness because it can take away the benefit that comes with hearing what might hurt me but yet help me better myself.
I really dont want to give off the wrong impression but it seem like that people perception of who I THINK is not how they truly view me Maybe it time to reevaluate myself.
You know that saying that people say that makes u rethink ur stance on things ? That saying that goes, " if you have issues with everyone or everyone saying the same thing Maybe your the problem". Now I have to sit here and really think.... am I really ??