One thing that drove me nuts before I left academia was the million initiatives launched at my unis that were just poorly-conceived pet projects of ladder climbing admins who could care less how disruptive/counter-productive they were as long as they (the admins) got their bag.
I’ve noticed that my friends who are already TT professors/on track to be tend to have pretty “lowbrow” habits, as in watch reality TV and play Nintendo and don’t read many novels, while my friends with good taste are largely half-employed and cursed to wander the earth
@dowellml I sh!t you not: when I asked for feedback as to why I wasn't a successful candidate for an LTA, one of them just told me that "suffering" would make me a "better person." Seriously, fkuc those people...
These same tenured faculty who beseech us to empathize or demonstrate on their behalves [amidst all these layoffs and shutdowns] were always content to be complacent otherwise; sustaining (or worsening) disparities by their own ineptitude, indifference, or malice.
High intelligence often comes with heightened pattern recognition. You start noticing social masks, forced conversations, performative friendships, hidden motives, emotional immaturity, and energy that feels draining instead of nourishing. Many highly intelligent people also have more active nervous systems, deeper inner worlds, and lower tolerance for superficial stimulation, so solitude can feel safer than constantly shrinking themselves to fit environments that don't feel aligned.