Alyssia Silverman

✯♫♀ ~ Artist / Mother / Baller ~ ♀♫✯ Living Every Day to the Fullest and LOVING IT! ^__~

[Alyssia Silverman @FoxyBallerAngel]

Like the mythical Phoenix, I too will rise from the ashes of a former self, reborn in a Storm of Fire, adorned by flames.

Yet the scars, the pain remains. Alas, I am not new. I am broken still. And I will not soon forget the folly of my trust.

[Alyssia Silverman @FoxyBallerAngel]

@HovoManagement @TashiraSports Nooo, of course not. What makes you say that?

[Alyssia Silverman @FoxyBallerAngel]

@TashiraSports Finally. This cleansing was long overdue. I hope the next staff can bring respectability and competence back to the franchise. The players and fans deserve better.

[Alyssia Silverman @FoxyBallerAngel]

@ShondreaSimpson @_DeeDeeLove_ @AkiakPratt @AnikaTonpo @egriega25 @RyuKyuBallshark @FbaLowe @McPuffypaws @ASAMCrossBall @KHicock Girl I'll make sure I have the biggest bells in the room, you can bet on that! 😸🔔🔔

[Alyssia Silverman @FoxyBallerAngel]

@ShondreaSimpson @_DeeDeeLove_ @AkiakPratt @AnikaTonpo @egriega25 @RyuKyuBallshark @FbaLowe @McPuffypaws @ASAMCrossBall @KHicock AHHHHH OMG KARAOKE?! I LOVE karaoke and singing! 🎤🎶 I'll be there with bells on, probably literally. 😸🎉🎆

[Alyssia Silverman @FoxyBallerAngel]

Playing SG again was fun.

[Alyssia Silverman @FoxyBallerAngel]

Congratulations @_LilMissMink_

You deserve it.

And thank you for still being my friend.

[Alyssia Silverman @FoxyBallerAngel]

@egriega25 You deserve to make it. Although it'd help if we were winning more.

I'm sorry for any part I played in that.

[Alyssia Silverman @FoxyBallerAngel]

@egriega25 @Ty_Q_22 Thanks Edwin. Some nights the shots just fall I guess.

[Alyssia Silverman @FoxyBallerAngel]

@AdawosgiFletch You're fine.

[Alyssia Silverman @FoxyBallerAngel]

I'm sorry to everyone I've disappointed.

[Alyssia Silverman @FoxyBallerAngel]

@egriega25 Thanks Edwin. I feel ok physically but like mentally, this is the hardest that playing basketball has ever been for me.

[Alyssia Silverman @FoxyBallerAngel]

I think... I just tried to do too much on the court.

I had to make up for my performance against the Whips...

But I just made things worse...

I couldn't focus...

Voices in my head screaming...

That's why they dropped me. I'm proving them right...

I'm just not good enough.

[Alyssia Silverman @FoxyBallerAngel]

@AdawosgiFletch I'm not sure we've met before, but I'm not a dude. An honest mistake I suppose.

[Alyssia Silverman @FoxyBallerAngel]

@Paulichek @HovoManagement I threw mine away. Does no good for me to hold onto painful reminders.

[Alyssia Silverman @FoxyBallerAngel]

@Paulichek I don't think a stream of consciousness chat is going to help with the type of pain I feel.

The damage is done. And it'll likely never heal.

[Alyssia Silverman @FoxyBallerAngel]

Acting happy all the time is physically and emotionally draining

Trying to lift the moods of others when you feel even lower is an emotional powerlift.

Can you dig yourself out of a deep hole and carry another person out with you?

My mental health just can't do it anymore.

[Alyssia Silverman @FoxyBallerAngel]

@egriega25 I've been advocating for that for years. I'll be sure to talk to them. I'm sure it couldn't make things worse.

[Alyssia Silverman @FoxyBallerAngel]

@egriega25 Thanks for the offer. I suppose I'm not at the point yet where I can't be trusted with sharp objects.

But I dont feel rage towards others. It's more self-destructive depression and feelings of worthlessness. But anyway, yeah...

[Alyssia Silverman @FoxyBallerAngel]

@TheGrandVanZant I don't need to grind the ax necessarily. A dull, blunt, rusty ax still gets the job done.

[Alyssia Silverman @FoxyBallerAngel]

Like the mythical Phoenix, I too will rise from the ashes of a former self, reborn in a Storm of Fire, adorned by flames.

Yet the scars, the pain remains. Alas, I am not new. I am broken still. And I will not soon forget the folly of my trust.

[Alyssia Silverman @FoxyBallerAngel]

I want to prove them wrong.

[Alyssia Silverman @FoxyBallerAngel]

My white fur is not a fashion statement nor a political one.

It is a tattoo to remind me of the pain I suffered.

It's to keep in mind the reason I'm here.

They didn't want me.

Now I'm here. In whatever form of me this is.

And though part of me feels I can't...