Rin

27 •
tired as FUCK bro •
She/her •
ED/misc vent •
18+ minors or non edtwt pls don't interact •

[Rin @GothicRin]

I'm almost 28 years old why am I still bipolar with disordered eating. This is fucking stupid actually

[Rin @GothicRin]

I've yet to find a more recurring, gut wrenching experience than every year near your birthday when you remember you are older than your dead older sister and for some reason your brain plays the highlight reel of your worst week on this Earth, possibly ever. What the fuck dude

[Rin @GothicRin]

The way EDs are written off as women's issues is why so many gymbros don't even realize they're also suffering; but I suppose we don't have time to unpack all of that

[Rin @GothicRin]

2025 has been 11 years long bc whyd I lose my best friend and gain a devastating situationship

[Rin @GothicRin]

5 years later and I still resonate with this. Stay a while. Hold my hand. It's okay to say goodbye.

[Rin @GothicRin]

Yeah 💖

[Rin @GothicRin]

It's so fascinating how easily my ED slips back into place. Like a poisonous old friend that I just can not seem to let go of. No matter how good or poorly my life is going; I can always rely on obsessing over my intake and my burned calories

[Rin @GothicRin]

Yeah so. I will be losing at least 7 pounds before Christmas. I've done 5 in a week when I was lower than this and not moving nearly as much. This should be light work.

[Rin @GothicRin]

Came to a startling discovery that being happy with my life and being a dancer as a job means I actually will gain weight. I did so fucking good avoiding the scale for months. I truly thought I wouldn't care what it said when I stepped on it! I CARE! I'M SO FAT!! FUCK!!!

[rain 🐋 ༊*·˚ @daintylatte]

being anorexic is like yay i can’t wait for tomorrow so i get to eat again

[Rin @GothicRin]

Roommate has a bf, I HATE HIM. He's irritating as fuck, insanely immature, and won't control his emotions. She has to monitor his drinking, his smoking, where his wallet is. She's raising someone older than her who leaves empty beer cans in her mother's car. I fucking hate him.

[Rin @GothicRin]

Being a stripper is so funny bc I can say things like "I need to lose this fat...for money!" and everyone's like "omg yes queen make that bag"

[Rin @GothicRin]

@sunsetlbs Thank you sweetheart 🩷🩷🩷

[Rin @GothicRin]

My friend is dead. Some absolute fucking scumbag going over 100 mph ran a red light and killed her. I fucking hate him I hate him I hate him I hate him. She was only 22. She wanted to open her own business. She was so so fucking beautiful inside and out. I love you Trinidy.

[Rin @GothicRin]

A level of drunk rn and can't stop thinking about my kindergarten best friend and hoping she's happy. We were 6 years old in a barbie jeep together and now we're 27 and I haven't heard from her since I was 6 but I'll always love her. I hope her dad got help. I hope she's in love

[yup thats me @lifeisonezmode]

A lot of you need to hear this

[Rin @GothicRin]

CW: 122

I need to make an exercise and cal plan...

[Rin @GothicRin]

Purposefully didn't give my mother my new number but now I'm upset she didn't even try to wish me a happy birthday. Deep down I know I'm just mourning the relationship I wish I had with her. Bc I want a mother. I want MY mother. But at the same time...fuck her for not even trying

[Rin @GothicRin]

My roommate thinks I've fully recovered (bc I told her I've fully recovered) but I've literally never had a worse relapse lol

[Rin @GothicRin]

Hate when i have an overwhelming urge to cry bc i have literally a dozen things to cry about at any given time and i fear if i start I'll just never stop