“Yeah of course.”
He’s picking the sketchbook up and showing him. His style was full of harsh lines and everything looked a bit distorted, but the realism was also there.
He let out a heavy sigh and stepped inside, dropping his bag on the floor and setting his tote on the table.
“Hey mom… yeah it’s been…a crazy few months.”
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before his hand even reaches the door, the door open, and she stands there, hands on her hip.
“ well hello stranger, ” she said, but it’s clear she’d happy he’s back home, “ come on, you look like you need to talk. “
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+ a burden to her that she was better without.
“I spent so long learning how to save people from monsters… and now I am one. I thought I could handle it. I thought I wouldn’t become like them… but I—I’m worse than some of them.”
He looked at her with tears welling in his eyes, doing everything he could to make sure they don’t slip. One hand moved up to rest on hers, aching for the comfort only a mother could bring but still struggling to find any at all. He felt like he was too far gone. He felt like +
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“ i’m not innocent in this, jessie.. i knew having a children could be dangerous, not for me, but for the child and i still went through with it. i wanted to love someone so badly that i didn’t realize i would hurt you more than i would keep you safe.. ”
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⠀⠀⠀ “You didn’t. Ben did.”
He looked away, trying not to sound like he was too bothered by it. Lately though, it had been eating at him. What had happened to his dreams? What had happened to his life? It took everything in him now to keep from just flipping that switch.
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now he had her attention, her face softening just a bit as she looks at him. he seemed genuine and that hurt more than she wanted to admit.
“ … then i think it’s best if you stay away from wanda until we can figure something out. she’s strong, but you could still +
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He looked down at the floor after taking in her words. He knew she was right but—well there was one part he had yet to explain and honestly he didn’t know if he wanted to admit it.
⠀⠀⠀ “I’m afraid I’m going to hurt
⠀⠀⠀ Wanda- or try to atleast.”
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another sigh before she finally turns around to face him.
“ jessie, i love you and you know that i will do everything i possibly can to protect you..but i can’t protect you from yourself. the ability to control oneself is possible, your father and i do it regularly, +
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“It’s not that simple and you know it… It might be easy for you to control it but it’s not for me. I can only drink so many blood bags before I want to stake myself-”
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she looks up from the sink, sighing softly before she shakes her head.
“ i’m not angry.. i know you struggle to open up and we shouldn’t force you to open up, but i just want you to be okay. from now on, no more therapy, okay? just,, stop eating people. ”
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