crazy that the God of the universe is on your side at all times and you don't think you can achieve your absolutely microscopic dust sized goals because the devil is whispering laughable deceit into your ears to make you feel alone, small, insecure, and insufficient
As your personality comes back after years of dormancy, you notice it little by little. First you might make yourself laugh with your own thoughts, then you might feel unexpected bliss sitting on the couch one afternoon, then you might feel a wave of pleasant nostalgia when you go home to see your parents, then you might sit in the backyard with your friends or family drinking wine and laughing - laughing with others, and then you might see a beautiful stranger and feel an adolescent type of attraction so strong you could swear it's love
The most dangerous thought in life is “if only…” Nothing that follows those words comes true. Embrace reality. Think. Pick a course of action & execute. The amount of time & energy people waste wishing things & others were different instead of leaning into their agency is sad.