at the alter

a mad (anti)scholar learning about myself and the world through divination, the practice of love, and somatics

[at the alter @HalfPastOnTime]

I like to think that when my cats lay on my clean clothes it’s so their scent is on them to remind me of their love when I leave the house

[at the alter @HalfPastOnTime]

Finished heartbreak high and crying over seeing an autistic character portrayed by an autistic actor… the sensory overload, meltdown, going non verbal, relationship struggles…

[s @moisturizedRN]

if you want to support Puerto Ricans in the aftermath of hurricane Fiona DIRECTLY:

here's a thread of local organizations (don't donate to the red cross)

[at the alter @HalfPastOnTime]

I feel like they were having a secret meeting in there

[Dr. Lucky Tran @luckytran]

POTUS: "The pandemic is over"

The data:

[at the alter @HalfPastOnTime]

@BlackVelvvett So proud 🥹

[at the alter @HalfPastOnTime]

Cw: alcohol
So silly of me to think I wouldn’t experience a flare after drinking this weekend. It’s histamine city right now… if this isn’t the consequences of my own actions 😪

[at the alter @HalfPastOnTime]

Didn’t see this until after I tried to organize my freezer and when I went to open the door the plant on top of the fridge fell and spilled soil all over the inside 😪

[at the alter @HalfPastOnTime]

@byprieta Thank you 💕 same offer is open to you, I know it’s hard for us who are acknowledging the real level of threat

[at the alter @HalfPastOnTime]

Tried to talk about my fears about monkey pox and lack of public response at therapy today and essentially was told that I’m worrying too much.

[at the alter @HalfPastOnTime]

I need a new therapist 😵‍💫

[at the alter @HalfPastOnTime]

Like no, y’all aren’t worried enough and certain people have to work high risk jobs where there are no precautions being taken.

[at the alter @HalfPastOnTime]

Gencon, lollapalooza, there are still massive events being held, a month or so from now, we’ll see the aftermath

[at the alter @HalfPastOnTime]

No resources to stop working, that would mean no housing or food, the government has left so many of us in this position. No agency over a choice of whether we live or die, end up with higher support needs due to repeated infections. Higher support needs that are rarely met.

[at the alter @HalfPastOnTime]

Terrified of contracting monkey pox at work since I make skin to skin contact with so many hurts, majority cis women, who are gonna think they won’t have it, since they’re not gay men.

[at the alter @HalfPastOnTime]

I have been trying to get a wfh job for a couple years but my autistic burnout from unmet support needs keeps me barely functioning, I was scared to get COVID as a chronically ill person and now I’m terrified of mpx as someone with eczema and herpes simplex.

[at the alter @HalfPastOnTime]

What if we are soothing the trauma of living in a world that rejects love, compassion? What if your dream requires you to completely reject the current reality?

[at the alter @HalfPastOnTime]

Notice how daydreaming becomes “bad” when it involves autistic characteristics

[New Scientist @newscientist]

Self-professed maladaptive daydreamers report that their daydreams were hard to control and interfered with their lives. Unlike regular daydreams, theirs often involved pacing and rocking, or unconscious facial expressions.

[at the alter @HalfPastOnTime]

Abolition includes the carceral function of the hospital.

[at the alter @HalfPastOnTime]

When the police have been called for me for a “wellness” check I was told I could get in the back of the squad car or go with campus security to the hospital and check myself in. Ostracized from community and confused I didn’t have the choice to leave.

[at the alter @HalfPastOnTime]

The psychiatrist told me if I checked myself out that I would be put in jail instead. Coerced into a “voluntary” stay