Harry Smith

32 year old starting my road to gambling freedom Last Bet 27/12/19

[Harry Smith @HarrySmith24680]

Now I take no real interest in sports in general,I look at the results just for something to talk about with friends and work colleagues,apart from that I don’t pay any attention to anything else for fear of thinking of having a bet. A thought I hope to never have to think of.

[Harry Smith @HarrySmith24680]

Afternoon everyone, if horse racing was your vice then remember to keep yourselves busy this week, we all know what it is. Don’t even look at the races, see who’s running, just blank the meeting out like you would do any other day.

[Harry Smith @HarrySmith24680]

Sports betting was my problem and I used to know what sports were playing on what night, betting was like my tv magazine. Sad I know but that’s what it did to me, I’d know what football leagues played what nights, nba every night.

[Harry Smith @HarrySmith24680]

One by one I will get them sorted but there’s no hiding and they need dealing with as I have noticed they have an effect on me.I just want to be the best I can for me, my partner and my kids but feel like I’m juggling 10 balls at the minute,just lots going on I spose that’s life.

[Harry Smith @HarrySmith24680]

Afternoon everyone, not been on here as much lately, lots going on.Still going strong on the no gambling front,still don’t think about having a bet or anything like that.Been spending the money I would of gambled on my partner and kids this month, makes a change from the old me.

[Harry Smith @HarrySmith24680]

Have tried explaining that when we gamble we have a box in our heads and gambling is the only thing in there, everything else is outside of that box.But now there’s no gambling I just have a big box full of lots of different thoughts that some days I struggle to deal with.

[Harry Smith @HarrySmith24680]

Still no bet since 27/12/19,don’t think about it to be honest. Got a lot of personal things going on at the minute,minds just in overdrive 24/7. Struggling to switch off my thoughts which makes me become quiet and distant,need to learn to work through them but don’t know how.

[Harry Smith @HarrySmith24680]

Still no gambling which is the best I’ve done for a long time but seems my plate of personal issues just grows and grows, one thing off 2 things on but little by little will sort it out I’m sure

[Harry Smith @HarrySmith24680]

Morning everyone, long old week at work done, few days off now with the family. Still no betting this year which is great, sometimes do feel a bit of a void though, just need to find a hobby to fill the time. Never realised how much time gambling took off me!

[Harry Smith @HarrySmith24680]

32 years old tomorrow,best present I’ve got myself is giving up the gambling,I’m happier,I don’t lie anymore,I’ve got money in my bank. My partner and I are taking things slowly and working through things and the kids are getting my full attention. Should of stopped sooner.

[Harry Smith @HarrySmith24680]

@AGAS_Mauritius All the best mate, sounds to me like your in a good place with your mindset at the moment, stay strong for you and daughter. Always here

[Harry Smith @HarrySmith24680]

Saturday is the big day for all gamblers, so much going on but with the right mindset and barriers in place, we can better ourselves by not going. I’m going to spend my day with my family. My mindset is 100% where it needs to be right now so no gambling for me. Stay strong!

[Harry Smith @HarrySmith24680]

@David35373127 Well done for staying strong she not going in, shows you can do it. The thought of it’ll only be a 10er would only last until that 10er is gone, it will then be more and more

[Harry Smith @HarrySmith24680]

@AGAS_Mauritius Hope she’s feeling better soon. Good to see your in a good place, always here if you need a chat.

[Harry Smith @HarrySmith24680]

Back to work tonight for the dreaded night shifts, spent the past 4 days with my kids and ex misses, no awkwardness, no arguing, just lots of adult conversation and fun with the kids. Makes you realise all the time I wasted in the bookies when I should of been at home with them!

[Harry Smith @HarrySmith24680]

New week but the same goals to not gamble and just be a better person for it.Had a good weekend with the kids,me and my ex have been talking like adults,which is good. Enjoyed being in each other’s company for a change. Got the little ones again today so going to enjoy the day!

[Harry Smith @HarrySmith24680]

Today I’ve had the kids as well,was the first real day me and my ex have been able to communicate without any shouting or awkwardness between us.Have missed the way we could talk and joke about things.Kids have been on top form, them and my ex give me the strength to not gamble.

[Harry Smith @HarrySmith24680]

Good day today,payday, not wasted or even thought about wasting any cash.Weird how every song when your going through a situation means something,getting my hair cut and I heard the lyrics’I need to lose you to find me’sums up my life, lost my family but have sorted my life out.

[Harry Smith @HarrySmith24680]

January? Completed it!!! Bring on February!!