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[Ik.dev @Ikdev4]

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[SHADOWLITE | ARTIST✍️ @shadowlite_]

I HAVE $50K [NGN75,000,000] DEBT STILL LEFT TO PAY AFTER 2 YEARS AND I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO PAY IT.

WHY?

I ALMOST DIED FOUR TIMES

NOT IN SOME POETIC, METAPHORICAL WAY.
I MEAN I STOOD ON THE EDGE, AND SOMETHING, OR SOMEONE YANKED ME BACK EVERY SINGLE TIME.
AFTER THE FOURTH, I STOPPED FIGHTING THE IDEA THAT MAYBE THE UNIVERSE WASN’T DONE WITH ME YET.

BUT THE UNIVERSE HAS A SICK SENSE OF HUMOUR.

IT KEPT ME ALIVE… AND THEN HANDED ME A BILL FOR OVER 100 MILLION NAIRA.

SO NOW I AM JUST REALLY TRYING MY BEST TO DISCOVER HOW BEST I CAN AFFECT THE WORLD POSITIVELY...........

SO HELLO, BEAUTIFUL SOULS!!!.….. HAPPY NEW MONTH!!!... AND HERE IS MY NOVEMBER DUMP....

I AM GRATEFUL THAT YOU STILL ARE READING THIS..... PLEASE STICK TILL THE END.... IT GETS BETTER I PROMISE...

ON MOST DAYS I JUST LURK, LIKE, SCROLL, THEN LOG OFF BECAUSE MY HEAD’S TOO HEAVY TO TALK.

BECAUSE THIS HAS BEEN EATING ME ALIVE FOR YEARS ... IT’S PART OF WHY I HAD TO LEAVE MEDICAL SCHOOL FOR A FEW YEARS...

IT’S WHY DEPRESSION GOT SO LOUD SOME DAYS I COULDN’T LEAVE MY ROOM. I’VE MANAGED TO PAY BACK A FEW THOUSAND DOLLARS ON MY OWN FROM A FEW GIGS OVER A YEAR AND A HALF .

BUT ABOUT 50K DOLLARS IS STILL LEFT TO PAY AND THE REALITY I DO NOT WANT TO ADMIT YET IS THAT I MIGHT TAKE THIS DEBT WITH ME TO 2026...AND THATS WAS MY WAKE UP CALL.... HENCE WHY I AM DOING THIS.....

I THOUGHT CRYPTO TRADING WOULD SAVE ME.....GET ME OUT OF THE TRENCHES LOL. ..,..YOU KNOW THE HUSTLERS MINDSET YEAH.... ANYWAYS I USED TO BE A VERY GOOD TRADER ....AND I HAD A NUMBER OF INVESTORS THAT I TRADED FOR.

BUT ONE IN PARTICULAR STOOD OUT AND HAS BECOME LIKE FAMILY SO THE GUILT IS EATING ME UP ALIVE THAT I ALLOWED MYSELF TO LOSE SO MUCH MONEY THAT HAS AFFECTED THIS MAN AND SO MANY OTHERS SO MUCH....

I AM NO STRANGER TO HOW MUCH UNFORSEEN TRAUMA CAN ALTER ONES LIFE TRAJECTORY BECAUSE HONESTLY I COULD SAY ITS ONE MR LUCKY- OYALUNA-HAKEEM THAT SCAMED ME WHEN I WAS 19 THAT LED ME ONTO THE PATH OF DESPERATION-INDUCED TRADING AND MONEY MAKING....

A DECISION I SEVERELY REGRET.......SO I REALLY REALLY DO WANT TO PAY OFF MY DEBTS AS QUICKLY AS I CAN TO AVOID CAUSING SO MUCH NEGATIVE RIPPLE EFFECTS IN THE LIVES OF THE PEOPLE AFFECTED.......

BECAUSE WHETHER WE LIKE IT OR NOT HUMANITY IS A DELICATE FABRIC OF WOVEN THREADS AND OUR ACTIONS CAN EITHER MAKE OR BREAK EACH OTHER

I STARTED TRADING IN 2019.....IT TOOK UNTIL 2021 TO BECOME PROFITABLE AND TILL 2024 TO BE BACK IN NET LOSS......

ANYWAYS I WAS CARELESS AND I FELL VICTIM TO AVOIDABLE LOSSES.... IT GOT TO A POINT IN MY WINNING STREAK WHERE I STARTED TO THINK I COULDN'T LOSE... IT FELT LIKE I WAS UNTOUCHABLE AND THE INVESTORS LOVED MY CONFIDENCE SO THEY INVESTED MORE

BUT THE MARKET ALWAYS FINDS WAYS TO HUMBLE YOU ... LONG STORY SHORT CRYPTO TRADING DIDN'T SAVE ME.....

IT JUST KEPT DIGGING THE HOLE DEEPER.

I HAD SOLD MY CARS, GADGETS, LANDED PROPERTIES AND ALMOST EVERYTHING I HAD TO PAY OFF SOME PEOPLE IN 2024.......THAT DIDN'T SOLVE EVERYTHING BUT IT REDUCED THE PRESSURE ON ME .....

WHEN IT ALL ESCALATED IN SEPTEMBER 2024.... I GAVE MYSELF TILL NOV 30, 2025 TO RECOVER EVERYTHING I LOST FROM TRADING AND THAT DEADLINE JUST PASSED WITH THE LAST MONTH.

SINCE THE DEADLINE I HAS PASSED .... I’M FINALLY ACCEPTING THAT THE CRYPTO TRADING PATH IS CLOSED .......

WORTHY OF NOTE THAT THE MOMENT I SAID “I’M DONE" OUT LOUD ....SOMETHING CRACKED OPEN INSIDE MY CHEST.

FOR THE FIRST TIME IN YEARS, I WOKE UP EXCITED.
NOT FOR CHARTS. NOT FOR 100X LEVERAGE.
BUT FOR A PENCIL... SEEING PEOPLE EYES LIT UP WHEN I SKETCHED THEM HEALED A PART OF ME. THAT WAS WHEN I REMEMBERED WHO I WAS BEFORE THE DEBT

THE KID WHO FINISHED TOP OF HIS SET IN SECONDARY SCHOOL WITHOUT OPENING A BOOK TWICE.

THE 400-LEVEL MEDICAL STUDENT WHO COASTED ON RAW TALENT AND NEVER LEARNED HOW TO ACTUALLY FIGHT FOR SOMETHING.

THE GUY WHO COULD DRAW YOUR SOUL ON PAPER IN 10-60 MINUTES FLAT.

I’M IN MY LATE MID TWENTIES NOW, DEGREE-LESS, BROKE, AND TERRIFYINGLY ALIVE.

AND I’M ASKING, NO, I’M BEGGING THE WORLD FOR ONE LAST SAVE.

I NEED THIS DEBT GONE SO I CAN BREATHE AGAIN.
SO DEPRESSION STOPS WINNING.

SO I CAN FINISH MEDICINE [BDS SPECIFICALLY], OR NOT, BUT AT LEAST CHOOSE MY LIFE INSTEAD OF HAVING IT CHOSEN BY DEBT

I’M EXCITED AGAIN ABOUT..... SUNRISE, MUSIC,FLOWERS,RAIN,WIND ..........LIFE!!!

I CAN EVEN GENUINELY SMILE AGAIN WITHOUT FEELING GUILTY......... AND I AM GRATEFUL FOR THESE LITTLE THINGS.... AND I WOULD LIKE TO PROTECT IT BECAUSE I GENUINELY LOVE THE PERSON I AM WHEN I AM NOT OVERWHELMED BY DEBT........ HE NEEDS TO REDEEM HIMSELF IN THE EYES OF EVERYONE HE HAS HURT SO FAR.....

HOWEVER ALL THE EGO DEATH, LOVE, AND LIGHT I CURRENTLY FEEL IS ALL BECAUSE OF ART..I STARTED TO SKETCH PEOPLE TO FUNDRAISE FOR AN OUTREACH TO THE SLUMS AND PAY FOR A MEDICAL BILL

BUT I NOW KNOW EXACTLY WHAT MAKES ME HAPPY, GIVES ME HOPE AND MAKES ME EXCITED TO WAKE UP ANOTHER DAY..... THE INTERSECTION BETWEEN ART AND COMMUNITY SERVICE IS WHERE MY HAPPINESSS IS

HAVING TRIED A LOT OF GIGS THAT I HAVE FOUND NO FULFILMENT BUT A MEANS TO A STIPEND IN..... I HAVE CONCLUDED THAT IN ALL HONESTY....

HAVING THIS WEIGHT OFF MY BACK WOULD HELP ME BREATHE AGAIN IN TURN ENABLE ME TO GET BACK TO BEING A HIGH FUNCTIONING MEMBER OF SOCIETY THAT CAN CONTRIBUTE IMMENSELY TO MAKING POSITIVE IMPACT.

I AM VERY TALENTED AND VERY RESOURCEFUL BUT DEPRESSION HAS EATEN AWAY AT MY CORE AND I DO NOT LIKE THE PERSON I AM BECOMING SO THIS IS MY CRY OUT TO THE WORLD TO PLEASE HELP ME RECLAIM MY SOUL!!!! AND GET MY LIFE BACK ON TRACK FASTER....

I AM SCARED A MISTAKE I MADE WHEN I WAS 19 HAS DRAGGED ON TO MY LATE 20S AND THE REST MIGHT PROBABLY END UP BEING DEDICATED TO DEBT REPAYMENT ....... I HAVE LOST WAY TOO MUCH TIME
HAVING TO DROP OUT OF MEDICAL SCHOOL IN 400LVL...

I HAVE APPLIED FOR REINSTATEMENT BUT THERE IS THE POSSIBILITY I MIGHT NOT BE ACCEPTED TO GO BACK AFTER LEAVING SO ABRUPTLY SO I HAVE WRITTEN JUPEB AND CAME OUT TOP 10 OUT OF THOUSANDS OF APPLICANTS

I HAVE A TRACK RECORD OF BEING ABLE TO EASILY EXCEL ABOVE MY PEERS WITH MINIMAL EFFORT EVER SINCE PRIMARY , SECONDARY SCH DAYS AND EVEN IN MEDICAL SCHOOL I COULD EASILY PASS WITH MINIMAL EFFORT.....

SO THE PAST FEW YEARS OF MY LIFE HAS FELT LIKE AN UNENDING HORROR CUTSCENE BECAUSE I COULD NEVER BREAK THAT THRESHOLD CONSCIOUSLY ANYMORE.....

I HAVE DONE ALL SORTS OF JOBS AND TAKEN ALL SORTS OF GIGS AND I AM STILL IN NO WHERE CLOSE TO MY GOAL

[Ik.dev @Ikdev4]

@QueenAkpan_ Oh wow.
How are you doing now since you resumed, trying to balance school and tech.
I'm a medical student and I don't even think it's possible with mine. Going for ward rounds and probably coming back late.
I'm just lost right now. Trying to get some advice here and there.

[Ik.dev @Ikdev4]

@Kaperskyguru What about Mongo DB. I already know how to use it. Do I still need to learn postgres?

[Ik.dev @Ikdev4]

@Mofe620 @QueenAkpan_ Amsul

[Ik.dev @Ikdev4]

@stephenwayar Hello boss. What do you use for your google Auth. Passport, Auth0 or some other Auth provider?

[Ik.dev @Ikdev4]

@Iam_Ehigie Only you guy😹😹

[Ik.dev @Ikdev4]

@JudeVector @EniolaCodes Plus you should try keeping those functions in a controller file. Then you can just import/require them into your routes file and use it there.
It makes your files have a cleaner look.

[Ik.dev @Ikdev4]

@JudeVector @EniolaCodes Bro, have you tried using async-await.
Try using that instead of the callbacks.
Then use try-catch with it or you can just use .then .catch syntax.
I think that's why your node app keeps crashing. Cause you're not catching/handling the errors.

[Ik.dev @Ikdev4]

Going back to React and Firebase today. Node don dey show me pepper.

[Ik.dev @Ikdev4]

Sometimes I get overwhelmed when I think about the sheer volume of things I still need to know😪

[Ik.dev @Ikdev4]

@OyindamolaIrene Nice. Congrats.

[Ik.dev @Ikdev4]

@forJessica_sake The fault in our Stars

[Ik.dev @Ikdev4]

@OyindamolaIrene Nice portfolio.
Did you code the website yourself.

[Ik.dev @Ikdev4]

Just completed my first back-end project with node, express and mongodb.
Let's see if I can add React to make a full MERN app.

[Ik.dev @Ikdev4]

@codingTherapist Happy for you😊

[Ik.dev @Ikdev4]

@universecodec @traversymedia Exactly. Next couple of years, there would be another framework that's better than Astro🤧

[Ik.dev @Ikdev4]

@QueenAkpan_ Node and Express

[Ik.dev @Ikdev4]

I'm definitely going to write an article on Auth.