once again asking everyone to LEARN HOW TO TORRENT. a good vpn is like 5 dollars for a month, downloading is free. I just got Nosferatu in 4k quality yesterday.
broaden my horizons with my art and try to put myself out there but I just cant seem to get that foot in the door and that that first step, and at the same time i feel like i got glazed so hard for my work in AP that I cant make anything that feels original and fulfilling.
urgh.. i cant become attracted to anyone without feeling unworthy of their reciprocation or knowing that if it went any farther it'd become destructive. I should probably try to go to college but w/ how torturous public schooling was for me im afraid get back into that lifestyle.
as i lurch towards my 19th birthday I find myself feeling behind and somewhat unfulfilled but i really just dont know what i could possibly pour myself into in an institutional way. I love my hobby work with electronics but my job being based on it feels daunting. I want to