IT IS THE SEASON FOR REAPING
AND IF YOUVE BEEN SOWING DISCORD AND THE REAPER WILL MEET YA WITH YOUR JUST DESSERTS
THANK GOD AND ME FOR HAVING A PURE HEART FIRST TIME IN A LONG TIME
GOOD LUCK GOD BLESS
Your blocks are there for a reason. Once you view blocks like criss-crossed pieces of yarn - you're able to logically think "okay, what's crossing over here?". You can then look at the pieces, dissect them, unwind & move forward
But how do you actually *see* the threads?
Meditation, experimentation, self-reflection
Pain is the arrow. You then follow it, play with it, move it, shift it, and through the scientific method - you eventually 'see' it. And once you see the puzzle piece, you can actually move it/use it
without urgency, years slip by like days. with extreme urgency, days stretch into years. urgency is the most underrated & most important force in making something of your life.
okay mom ♥️
a few scriptures:
• mark 11:24 - “whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.”
• john 15:7 - “if you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you.”
• james 1:6-7 - “when you ask, you must believe and not doubt…”
• 1 john 5:14-15 - “if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us… and we know that we have what we asked of him.”
• matthew 7:7-8 - “ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.”
Repetition is the easiest way to code ur subconscious, which is largely responsible for orchestrating the events of ur life. Make sure it’s coding the life u actually want.
A hilarious phenomena that rears its ugly head in virtually every tradition, movement, and philosophy ever created.
Is the zeal of the newly converted.
Now while there’s nothing wrong with their enthusiasm per se, (It’s great that they’re excited and eager to integrate the new concepts and teachings into their life!)…
It’s that their zeal overpowers their wisdom.
This is most readily visible in religion.
You’ve probably seen it yourself:
Someone become a born again Christian or a revert Muslim and what happens?
Whenever we genuinely adopt a powerful new lens with which to view reality, that lens tends to dominate our perception for a while.
This new lens, not only changes how we see the future, but it also changes how we reinterpret the past.
They begin reassessing their decisions, their relationships, their values, and even the people around them.
Suddenly, everything looks so different.
And in that excitement, they instantly begin lecturing and criticising everyone around them, even those who have been immersed in that tradition for longer than they have been alive!
This phenomenon is extremely common.
Because for many people, toying with excess is how they discover where balance is.
Extend grace to these people because every worthwhile framework has a honeymoon phase.
Over time, rabid certainty matures into nuance and the performance crystallises into embodiment. And perhaps most important of all…
Conviction matures into humility.
And humility is often among the final fruits of genuine understanding.
This process is perhaps more universal than you once realised...
So extend a little grace.
To the people rolling their eyes… and to the person who’s just discovered a new lens through which to see the world.
Namaste.
it is an unwritten rule of life that after every prolonged period of hardship and uncertainty, there comes a period where you achieve quantum leaps across multiple areas of your life. the only requirement is that you do not give up on yourself. whatever you walked through, it was not wasted. the waiting, the wondering, the nights you held yourself together with nothing but faith and stubbornness, all of it was preparing the ground for what’s arriving. you don’t have to know how yet. you don’t even have to see it yet. you just have to stay. stay soft, stay open, stay in your own corner. the leap is already in motion. your job is just to not walk away right before it lands. i’m rooting for you, buena suerte.
This sounds cringe as fuck but it genuinely has power to re-wire your emotional system
Every night, before you go to sleep - sit or lay down & imagine how you'd feel if you loved/accepted yourself fully, with ZERO lagging internal threads. Holistic, full, raging self-acceptance/love. How you would feel if you "totally made it", and were hyper-confident/fully-expressive, for no other reason than you're YOU.
Simulate how you'd feel if you met every one of your conditions for yourself to feel x way, they worked out perfectly, you did it, and now you're like "fuck yeah", and are experiencing it fully.
if you can find this 'emotional home', you're then able to create a space for it, and once created, you can then essentially just return on command. You can disregard your current 'not good enough' state, and temporarily operate in this simulated space, when you remember to do so
If you then want to add self-awareness into it, you can run this experiment and then ask yourself "now why do i feel like can't just exist like this, at every moment?" - and the conditional you've set for yourself will bubble up
and here's the mindfuck:
The exact conditional that comes up, such as "i can't feel like this because i haven't or don't have x", IS the block itself. You do not HAVE that exact thing, BECAUSE you've created lack for it, and have attached that lack TO your being.
It sounds backwards on paper. But when you let that lack statement (attached to your being) go, you are now free to move forward. The suppression was the block, in a strange 360-degree way.
Run a month (or 90-day) experiment where you remove all 'conditional confidence' or 'conditional action'
Most are like "I'll wait till x $$ amount to x,y,z". Or "i'll wait till x bodyfat % to x,y,z". Whatever it is, that you genuinely feel is true - experiment with letting it go for 30 days. Run a cheatcode on yourself
Hilarious part is, if you stick to this, you will see what you thought mattered, never actually did. And that's "level 1" - fully seeing the entire narrative/conditionality of it was bullshit
"level 2" is when you see that it is also a handicap. Meaning, to hinge x on y is a fundamentally weaker position than not having that hinge in place. It's a self-generated, non-advantaged position.
And it really only takes 30 days of aggressive experimental action to get both insights. But you have to fully commit.
"what if that wasn't true? and I operated as if it wasn't?"
Then when you fully realize it isn't from an embodied pov (and not just logically), you're like "oh"... lot of wasted time
I’m not gonna lie
2026 is probably the hardest year of my life
So much personal development / growth / realisations
I know it’s setting the foundation for my future
But it’s been L after L
Setback after setback
“The old” crumbling away I guess
I’ve got no idea how this gets better but I just know it will
I guess I have nothing to worry about
But this shit is hard and it is painful in the moment
But it’s a matter of time before I pull myself out of it I guess