~ Jack ~

| 19 y | Ana-r | cbmi high 12s | gbmi 11 | Ugbmi 🪦 | 🏥 x5 | Gastroparesis🫃🏻:/ ‼️NSFW DNI‼️

[~ Jack ~ @Jack_Attack0_o]

~Intro post~

•19 y/o•
•Irish🇮🇪•

~Basically my vent account about the shit show my life has become since I am so isolated due to chronic illness and the knock on effect it has on my mh🤩~

•🏥 2x from Ana (7 weeks)
•🏥 3x from gi issues (22 weeks)

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•Diagnosed: (At 17)
Ana-r

•Diagnosed (at 18): Gastroparesis
Nutcracker syndrome
Hiatal hernia
Gastritis
Pelvic floor dysfunction

(Most caused by camhs medical neglect from forced recovery w neglected gi issues)

(My adhd brother and his gf suspect I also have adhd and previously camhs said I show signs but can’t be assessed cuz of being uw so who knows 🤷‍♂️)

•Hobbies🎨🖌️•
Art, drawing, crafts, clay, crochet/sewing teddys ect. gaming, baking (ironically), listening to music

•interests•
Minecraft
Avatar (JC)
Pokémon
Fnaf
Adventure time
Tlou

•Fav bands 🎧 🎵•
Silverstein
Pierce the veil
Black veil brides
Alesana
Chiodos
Saosin
Hawthorn heights
Dance gavin dance
Isles & glaciers
Old p!atd
Attack Attack!
Asking Alexandria
+sm more I ❤️ music

I am generally a overly kind person so don’t worry bout me purposely being a prick lol :p

[~ Jack ~ @Jack_Attack0_o]

Ugh today I crashed so hard and couldn’t get in my 20,000 steps so I had to settle for 18,000 and go to bed cuz I’m pooped :|
Still in a 1000+ cal deficit so I’m trying to tell myself it’s ok to have a bit of a rest day
I’ll hopefully have more energy saved up for tomorrow and make up for it :p

[~ Jack ~ @Jack_Attack0_o]

@indiezero Ik I got hospitalised first at bmi high 13s cuz I was only eating 300 kcals but was too weak to even get out of bed
I’m probably in as big of a deficit now by eating a bit more and over exercising but my heath is already as fucked as it can be so idc anymore unfortunately lol

[~ Jack ~ @Jack_Attack0_o]

Keeping this up till I’m not a fat fucking chud.
Barley even losing weight, but am defo loosing my marbles 😃

[~ Jack ~ @Jack_Attack0_o]

Anyone on 100mg of sertraline, did you notice weight gain?

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I actually had motivations to do my hobbies when I was on a higher dose of my antidepressants
but I told be dr to put me back on a low dose cuz I was getting “side effects”
…I was just scared they’d make me gain weight 🥲
Now I don’t even have motivation to text ppl back for 5 weeks at a time😭

[Zerø @zeromoder]

I still can't grasp the idea of people liking me...

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I was gonna go to bed cuz I’m tired but now I want to pace till midnight to make sure I lose faster cuz I clearly look huge if I’m only NOW starting to look skinny at bmi 12.9

[~ Jack ~ @Jack_Attack0_o]

Oooo I’m gonna crash tf outtt
My dad just came in my room looked at me and said
“Ur getting fair scrawny looking again, i noticed it a few days ago that ur after loosing weight”
“FEW DAYS!?”
“Scrawny AGAIN”
JUST CALL ME FAT ATP

[~ Jack ~ @Jack_Attack0_o]

@Igotccchronic

[~ Jack ~ @Jack_Attack0_o]

@Igotccchronic Dosnt help my case that I’m nerfed at 5’3😔

[~ Jack ~ @Jack_Attack0_o]

@Igotccchronic Dw I get asked what CLASS in going into (implying I’m a primary school student, no more then 13 y/o)
I graduated secondary school in summer 2025😭

[~ Jack ~ @Jack_Attack0_o]

@Igotccchronic I got a baby face too everyone thinks I’m 12😩
The struggle is real I feel u man😮‍💨

[~ Jack ~ @Jack_Attack0_o]

@Igotccchronic I got rlly chubby face genetics 🫩
But even at bmi 13 I look normal just not fat…
Then at bmi 12 it just randomly all disappears 😭

[~ Jack ~ @Jack_Attack0_o]

Having muscle dosnt bother me id actually like to look a bit leaner
But I think since gaining and loosing weight my fat and muscle has redistributed back weirdly cuz I defo don’t look as skinny as my lw despite some of my measurements being smaller so when all my measurements r smaller then my lw i hopefully wont feel so big😭

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@psycicosis I’m usually in a 9000 calorie deficit a week which should be a bit over 1kg a week but I don’t even think I’m loosing that because I would have been at my lw by now :|

[~ Jack ~ @Jack_Attack0_o]

@psycicosis Almost all my measurements r smaller then my lw except my big ah thighs r still 1.5 cm bigger but i am also doing
20,000 steps now compared to like 10k so its prob muscle but my face still looks fat asf compared to then

[~ Jack ~ @Jack_Attack0_o]

@puke0kcal

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@psycicosis I don’t have a scale since my dad smashed it like 2 years ago lol.
Just trying to loose as much as possible
I’ve lost 10cm off my thighs since July and so I’m just comparing my measurements to my old ones when I had my weight from the hospital and doctors and stuff

[~ Jack ~ @Jack_Attack0_o]

I am restless in a way only loosing weight can fix