Being Chinese learning Japanese is so funny cuz I keep reading kanji as hanzi
So instead of reading 私わ学生ですas
“watashi wa gakusei desu”
I read it as
“watashi wa ✨XUÉ SHĒNG ✨ desu”
i have this horrible feeling i will never be understood or loved or accepted bc of my bpd even when i try my hardest to mask it or pretend im okay so im more palatable to others
it drives me bonkers when i see ppl w bpd being called all sorts of names when the reason we split is because we’re receiving the same treatment that gave us the disorder in the first place. yes, sometimes it’s irrational, but if you’re making someone split constantly, that’s you
I hate Bpd I can’t be sad about just one thing I’ll be sad about one thing and suddenly I remember that one thing that upset me 2 years ago and it’s game over
BPD thoughts in the span of an hour:
- they hate me
- I hate me
- Im fucking amazing
- I wish I were dead
- RAGE
- I hate me
- I wish I was always this numb
- I wish I could feel something, anything
- theyre mad at me, I know it
- I would be better off dead
- life is beautiful