Mom said that this is actually my rug and was my birthday present. I'm glad. I'm going through a lot of withdrawal symptoms and I don't have any razor blades with me. Damn
Every time my gf says that she really loves me and that she is not irritated by my constant whining and apologies, I feel like itβs a lie. Like, why do you even love worthless trash who does nothing but whine? This feels so fake. I'm dying (crying)
It kind of scares me. Dating someone, staying in touch with them for a long time, fulfilling their every wish, and then starting to doubt the truth of my feelings. Like, I lie a lot, yes, but to lie to myself that I love this person?
Very dubious feelings.