this lady just crashed into me by backing up, honked hella to try & stop it but too late.. 1000% her fault (obvi) plus many witnesses but she chooses not to cooperate or give me any of her info for an hour , while the passenger verbally attacks me lol 🙃
I always find it quite triggering when I’m dismissed, especially when I’m trying very hard to express how I’m feeling or why I behave a certain way. I put myself in an extremely vulnerable position earlier, attempting to explain why I react the way I do to touch and what I’m doing to try and change this fact. I’m aware that these are all old wounds that have never been able to completely heal, but it doesn’t mean that even though I’m able to use logic in this situation, the emotions don’t get impacted. I find myself becoming almost toddler-like in behavior, wanting to stomp my feet and yell, “Listen to me!” But I don’t. I just retreat back behind the veil, where things are safe, no longer interested in interacting with a world that, by my experience, has no interest in making space for me but expects me to contort myself into the spaces they have thrown at me.
Does anybody find it absolutely exhausting thinking of ways we’re being poisoned by the world? Like I can’t pick the right shampoo, the right bread, the right baking soda, the right laundry detergent bc everything is damaging to the world or poisonous to humans. Exhausted man
The conversations I have with strangers, especially old people, really heal parts of my heart & i don’t know why but i genuinely enjoy each interaction 🙏🏼