This helped me a lot.
“If you are crying and grieving over the loss of Charlie Kirk and feel a bit odd or silly because you aren't understanding why you feel so devastated, I will tell you why you are crying.
Yesterday we lost an annointed man. David didn't even dare kill Saul because he was Gods anointed. You are feeling the spiritual weight of a martyr. It is heavy. It is dark. We are witnessing the evil in our own home country together and it hurts. You aren't being silly or dramatic. Your spirit is grieved.”