being suicidal doesn’t mean that I’m going to kill myself. being suicidal is having this inexplainable ache while you’re living. It’s waiting for your life to end, and wishing that you didn’t have to carry on. Having this ache, and incapability to feel happy living, doesn’t mean that I am going to kill myself; it just means that I wouldn’t mind dying
Me obligue a comer, a bañarme, a cepillarme los dientes. Me obligue a fingir que no quería morir. Me oblique y sigo obligando, todo con la esperanza de algún día tener la motivación de vivir