@nyalra Thank you, Nyalra, for the courage to tell this story. I went through life trying to understand what is wrong with me. It was never me, it was never any of us. We're all just addicts
I was going to wait until I went to the premiere...but given my health I don't think I'll be able to make it
I had a small voice acting role in the NEEDY GIRL OVERDOSE anime!!
I got to meet the main cast and record in front of them! It was so fun and terrifying! Thank you Nyalra for it inviting me!! It was a dream come true!🥹
Be sure to listen out for me when it comes out in April and look for my name in the credits hehe!!✨👻
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COMMENT
As a result of pouring absolutely everything from the thirty years I’ve been alive into this project, every last element, from self-harm to drugs, religion, and sex—got flagged during the review process. Each time it happened, the anime staff worked hard to keep the vision intact, insisting: “We absolutely don’t want to let fear of regulation ruin what makes this work compelling,” and they kept pushing. Thanks to that, the NEEDY anime has been coming together in an almost undiluted, straight-from-the-bottle form. Seeing the staff’s passion and depth of understanding, and how strongly they believed that “the concept of NEEDY GIRL has a reason to exist in this world,” and that “there are certain expressions only this work can depict," I’m now fully certain of this project’s value.
When the voice actors performed the scripts I’d written so nakedly and frankly, there were moments when someone, fully immersed, would start crying. In that instant, I realized it: what this work is depicting, in the end, is “human beings.”
A lot of people have discussed NEEDY with “the internet” at the center of it all.
As for me, I’m proud to say I wrote out, in the original game, both the sweetness and the bitterness of the internet as I’ve seen it from childhood to the present. And because this is an anime born from that kind of work, of course we have to ask ourselves: “What was the internet, anyway?” Even the title of the new song I made with my friends this time is "INTERNET ANGEL".
After releasing the game, the huge reaction to it connected me, too, to an unspecified multitude across the world. And I was insulted at times, had admiration hurled at me at times, was loved at times, attacked at times. Who on earth are these faceless people? Trends, oshis, faith, sneering cynicism, call-outs and pile-ons, outrage fires, consumption, algorithms, SNS, love and hate, influencers, pop, culture, criticism, subculture, mainstream, illustration, animation.
My conclusion was: “human beings.”
The true nature of the internet is nothing special. It’s simply “a gathering of human beings.” It isn’t anonymity, and it isn’t AI. Everything there is a collection of individuals: First there are people, and then there is the internet.
At the end of a long history, humanity finally took a small rectangle into its hands and connected, at light speed, with people all over the world. Faced with the first great transformation in human history, many people are tormented by both its merits and its harms. Now, people fear that excessive power so much that smartphones and SNS are being regulated around the world.
That overwhelming electromagnetic field, too, is “human beings.”
Picking at a single word to nail a celebrity to a cross and burn them for it, or elevating a nameless girl—wrapped in two-dimensional aesthetics as she broadcasts her feelings—into an idol to be worshiped... all of it is done by individual human beings, one by one.
The internet’s true nature was human beings.
And so, at the turning point of my mid-life, I had to depict across thirteen episodes everything I’ve experienced of “the truth, the goodness, and the beauty human beings possess,” and in doing so, sublimate that strange youth I spent together with an unspecified multitude across the world into the comprehensive art form called animation.
That comes with immense pain. It also means we can’t avoid including extreme, blunt expressions, and I’m sure countless opinions will fly back and forth. I think that, too, is proof that you are human. When the Taroman film ended on the caption “Taro Okamoto: Human,” I was overwhelmed, thinking: yes. Exactly this.
Me, and you—we’re not anonymity. We’re not anime icons. We’re not creators, or lurkers, or streamers, or scalpers, or fans, or antis, or Toshiaki, or Nanashi-san.
We are human beings who feel pain.
nyalra
Many of my followers are Brazilian.
Brazil was the second largest source of visitors to my blog.
Just recently, I was also invited to come to an anime event in Brazil.
I’d really like to meet them in person someday.
It’s almost on the exact opposite side of the Earth.🇧🇷
I love Doki Doki Literature Club!
The fact that this wonderful game was born not in Japan but in the English world feels like destiny, and it remains a great challenge for us Japanese creators.
Without this work, I would never have felt motivated to create NEEDY.
Just Monika
@chronicpsycho_ There is no fundamental "reason" for anything. We are short lived motes of dust lost in an unending ocean of space and time. God can't do anything unless we try first. Nobody can save you but yourself. There never was a plan, karma or cosmic justice. We exist only by accident.
@elfinpsyop You DO know that at 21 years old, you're still mentally a child right? Before 25, the parts of your brain that do impulse control, risk evaluation and emotional regulation are still underdeveloped.
Don't be too harsh on yourself. Because society will.
The visual novel I’m working on with Ohisashiburi and Aiobahn is progressing well, with a programmer friend also joining the team. We’re working hard every day aiming to announce it within this year, so please support us!
Nyalra deserves better and more people need to know that the person behind NEEDY GIRL is being treated VERY unfairly by Why so serious (WSS). Please read below if you want more context.
genuinely the most tense and heartbreaking playthrough of this game i've seen. imagine it literally being your job to prevent this kind of stuff from happening and seeing your worst nightmare unfold while feeling powerless to do anything
this game is CRUEL lol