Olivia

worthless human being without a single redeemable quality, except being funny to my friends sometimes
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[Olivia @JustLetMeBeSad]

@aiglantin @ryokimffghdjfgh @rep_princess how am i supposed to view it as something im freely choosing to do? genuinely asking, i want to know

[Olivia @JustLetMeBeSad]

@utoandrophobia im already injecting arthritis medicine every other week but i get anxious every time haha

[Olivia @JustLetMeBeSad]

has hrt made anyone else more dysphoric? im still pretty early on hrt, and im wondering if it gets better? i just feel so hopeless, i cant stop thinking about the things i cant change, and im not getting great results from hormones (my levels are good btw)

[Olivia @JustLetMeBeSad]

@utoandrophobia i have an endo appointment in 3 weeks, ill ask about it, would be nice to only have to do it once a week anyways, though im not a huge needle fan

[Olivia @JustLetMeBeSad]

@utoandrophobia endo told me theres no benefit if levels are good, should i switch?

[Olivia @JustLetMeBeSad]

@RebelWilt13432 @tifagirlx i feel like its just for protection, if a guy feels like he got tricked or whatever he might genuinely try to murder you

[Olivia @JustLetMeBeSad]

@utoandrophobia estradiol = 1.7 nmol/l
testosterone = 0.5 nmol/l
test was taken 6 hours after estrogel application and 4 days since last cypro dose

[Olivia @JustLetMeBeSad]

i meant to say when i was 15 not 2015

[Olivia @JustLetMeBeSad]

i tried diying for the first time in 2015, and since im so stupid it took me insanely long to understand how to do it while staying anonymous. then my shit got seized at customs, tried a few more times, same problem, then i gave up

[Olivia @JustLetMeBeSad]

@utoandrophobia this is really inspiring actually, maybe its time to do some exposure therapy myself. congrats btw

[Olivia @JustLetMeBeSad]

@GarfieldSmutFan going through the same thing, ive managed to go from 17 to 18 bmi, but i need to gain so much more, and its really hard. best of luck, i believe in us!

[Olivia @JustLetMeBeSad]

@GarfieldSmutFan if you look at this and dont acknowledge that at the very least you pass in photos, you’ll never be happy no matter what hrt or surgery does for you, because your biggest problem is a warped perception caused by gender dysphoria, and change has to come from within

[Olivia @JustLetMeBeSad]

im gonna try this… maybe, 1 and 2 seem really hard

[Olivia @JustLetMeBeSad]

@BoofingTabasco interesting, i cant relate to this at all, glad you’re feeling better tho

[Olivia @JustLetMeBeSad]

honestly i think the part about my height that bugs me the most is that i feel threatening, i feel like my mere presence is making people uncomfortable. like if i looked exactly as i did rn, but was like 5 foot 6 or under, id be a lot more comfortable presenting fem outside

[Olivia @JustLetMeBeSad]

transphobia has been so normalized throughout my life that i kinda dont get upset about it at all, like it just seems natural to me. and itd be kinda hypocritical of me with how transphobic i am to myself, i gotta let other people do it too, right?

[Olivia @JustLetMeBeSad]

@krystal_is_dumb cant remember too much from my childhood, but i felt uncomfortable with being a boy and fantasized about being a girl in early elementary, but it wasnt too bad. i wouldnt say i had actual bad gender dysphoria until puberty started.

[Olivia @JustLetMeBeSad]

@manmoderspics @DesiresAreGrey 6 foot 1… sure you’re tall but height reduction surgery will put you in tall cis female range. i am genuinely doomed, even with the most dramatic surgeries

[Olivia @JustLetMeBeSad]

@manmoderspics mogs me

[Olivia @JustLetMeBeSad]

i couldnt do it

[Olivia @JustLetMeBeSad]

im turning a new leaf, im entering a positive arc, no more dooming. im gonna be positive from now on, thats my new personality, im just a positive guy

[Olivia @JustLetMeBeSad]

another thing that sucks a about being tall, is that this is the perspective most people see you from