The Estranged One

[The Estranged One @JustSearchLost]

@mochi_mood Eh cam kenal je

[The Estranged One @JustSearchLost]

@mochi_mood Hohoho... That's awesome

[The Estranged One @JustSearchLost]

@afiqsazlan Baru dapat tahun ni. Kerja da masuk tahun ke-3. Dapat promotion from Exec to Senior Exec. Company jenis evaluate KPI twice a year, so always go beyond what is expected. Clear vision on my career growth. Suka kerja situ sbb projek bnyk, a lot of things to learn. Tak boleh manja 😅

[The Estranged One @JustSearchLost]

@mochi_mood Hohoho. Mcm la me bela kucing

[The Estranged One @JustSearchLost]

@mochi_mood Lol.. kena gigit pula nnti hahaha

[The Estranged One @JustSearchLost]

@mochi_mood Memang benar itu

[The Estranged One @JustSearchLost]

@mochi_mood Eh eh

[Poem Heaven @PoemHeaven]

look at you..

[The Estranged One @JustSearchLost]

It's heavy and the burden, it feels unbearable.

[The Estranged One @JustSearchLost]

The biggest reason why I always keep quiet, stay silent whenever people makes me angry, pushing me too far, giving me unreasonable task, is because I'm afraid of being angry and lose control of my action.

To be honest, if people dig down my imagination...

[The Estranged One @JustSearchLost]

They will see how scary my thoughts are.

I always know how bad I am, and how far will I go if I lose control.

But that's the scary part.

The sad part is, I will feel something inside me has lost, once I did the things that I don't want to. The sadness that cannot be relieved

[The Estranged One @JustSearchLost]

Wise word.

[teme Abdullah @itsteme]

I know it hurts knowing you tried your best and it’s still wasn’t enough. But you can’t keep shedding tears over people that don’t deserve your commitment.

It’s their loss to lose you, not yours. Their inability to appreciate and see your worth doesn’t decrease your value.

[The Estranged One @JustSearchLost]

The beginning of the songs...

It hits hard, eventhough it starts slow...

[The Estranged One @JustSearchLost]

Because it's all start with me.

Thank you dear self. For realising and acknowledging that I'm weak at the moment. For trying and striving to better stronger and better everyday. It doesn't matter if others making fun of me. At least, I'm trying when they have decided to stop.

[The Estranged One @JustSearchLost]

Everyday, I'm reminded of the event, like it is haunting me since it's happened. Till this day, when I'm working out, when I'm taking a rest, when I'm working. Even when I'm sleeping, I'm dreaming about it.

[The Estranged One @JustSearchLost]

It's hard. I feel like I'm alone in this journey. Feels like I have no support. No guidance.

But I try to ignore it. When I need guidance, I'll ask. When I need support, I support myself. When I feel like giving up, I'll knock myself down and lift myself up.

[The Estranged One @JustSearchLost]

Thank you for both positivity and negativity. I'll do better in the future, and be better.

[The Estranged One @JustSearchLost]

I heard it.

And yes, I acknowledged it, even though I felt a bit sad about what they said.

It was my first. I expected the result. Didn't expect much, just want to try my best.

Got another opportunity. Improved, much better than before, even though it is not much...

[The Estranged One @JustSearchLost]

But at least I've tried. Even people close to me tried to cheer me up, but their way of saying it, feels like they were force to say it.

People who I've just met during the tournament, offers much better advices and cheers. I'm thankful for it.

So I'll close one of ears.