Just a sad guy

Guy, bisexual, 24 y/o, depression, severe anxiety, ADHD, borderline personality disorder, psychosis, avoident/restrictive ED, and a severe sleeping disorder.

[Just a sad guy @Justasadguy3]

Even those we love the most can be a poison to our souls.

[Just a sad guy @Justasadguy3]

I have survived. I am here. Confused and screwed up, but here.

[Just a sad guy @Justasadguy3]

I'd like to be my old self again, but I'm still trying to find it.

[Just a sad guy @Justasadguy3]

I'm not living, I'm just surviving

[Just a sad guy @Justasadguy3]

I have spent all my life resisting the desire to end it.

[Just a sad guy @Justasadguy3]

The neurodivergent urge, to melt into the floor in mortification, after making a minor error.

[Just a sad guy @Justasadguy3]

I've been mentally ill for such a long time, I don't even know who I am underneath it all.

[Just a sad guy @Justasadguy3]

I'm not living, I'm just killing time

[Just a sad guy @Justasadguy3]

It sort of feels like I’ve entered into a fucked up reality, where I’m doomed to feel out of place, forever.

[Just a sad guy @Justasadguy3]

I feel empty in a way I never have before.

[Just a sad guy @Justasadguy3]

I'm destroying myself so other people can't, and it's the worst kind of control, but it's the only form I know..

[Just a sad guy @Justasadguy3]

Do you ever get that feeling when you’re sitting in your room alone, your thoughts wander, you’re not crying but you just feel sad and empty, replaying moments from your life and wondering. Where did it all go wrong?

[Just a sad guy @Justasadguy3]

How many times have people used a pen or paintbrush because they couldn’t pull the trigger?

[Just a sad guy @Justasadguy3]

I don't know how I'm going to live with myself for the rest of my life.

[Just a sad guy @Justasadguy3]

I’m carrying so much right now and I’d really like to put some of it down

[Just a sad guy @Justasadguy3]

You ripped me into pieces so small, I wasn't sure I still existed.

[Just a sad guy @Justasadguy3]

I've had to learn it the hard way, that you should never let your happiness depend on something, you may lose.

[Just a sad guy @Justasadguy3]

I don’t like needing anyone for anything.

[Just a sad guy @Justasadguy3]

I feel so detached from this world

[Just a sad guy @Justasadguy3]

Recently I’ve been passing the days, not living them.