@BaileyisBratty How can I become a bimbo? Should I? All I know is that bimbos have their own bread in grocery stores. There's a polar bear (?) on the bag. Man or bear? Become the bear. Become a bimbo bear with Bimbo Bread.
I'm on it.
I liked how libraries and hospitals in Florida looked like nightclubs after dark.
I liked how a little town in the middle of nowhere in Nevada at night felt like my childhood neighborhood in Inglewood.
I love the uber-sleepy and dimly lit neighborhoods in Pennsylvania.
One of my favorite things about avid traveling was experiencing the different grocery store chains and mini marts native to different states. Differences in stores like CVS across the country. Reminds me of vanilla No Man's Sky.
So many different vibes and products.
Lesson learned: you cannot stop being avoidant simply by "unavoiding" all of your emotions at once. Please do not try this at home. My brain told me "no" and used its emergency brakes to force me to stop.
I thought I could do it alone because I do everything alone. No longer.
One thing I can say about younger avoidant me is that I eventually came back for virtually everyone, but I did it extremely, extremely late. Like years later. Just to see what happened to them, hoping to reconnect, but my sense of time and space was too far off.
Avoidants that know they're avoidant and tell you early on are your best bet. That means they're trying to work with you and they take some responsibility for themselves.
We'll spend time vetting you and getting gradually closer to you if we like you and we're emotionally mature
I've had a friend for 10+ years that was avoidant the whole time, and I had no idea. I knew she disappeared for weeks, but eventually I would disappear too, because I was also avoidant.
So 2 avoidants can have a "like we were just talking yesterday" but months apart friendship.
@writer_4nne (does this mean when they said they loved you, you became vulnerable to them and gave them the power to make you happy, when that power was once only yours?)
When you see the invisible version of her like you're using sonar, but you're just thinking of her and all the little things she does, it's the most adorable and heart melting picture you've ever seen. And you start thinking of her that way.
@writer_4nne People often attack using their own insecurities as a weapon.
Independent thinkers club for doing things independently together. π€ Parallel.
@JessPected Oof. I was always shocked by how uncomfortably comfortable my friends got to their partners in committed relationships, and I've got romantic and avoidant foundations to thank for that. I kept saying I wanted a chance to do a relationship better, but I kinda avoided them.