I hate thinking "okay lemme show less love" "lemme not care so much." I hate that feeling. I should never have to feel that way. My purest form is loving hard, caring hard, and nurturing hard. Those are not negative.
no one talks about how hard it is when your mood is constantly switching between “its okay, i don't care. i'm fine” and “i don't know how much more i can take”.
i realized that no one, not even my mother or closest friends knows what i’m actually like in the inside of my head, and the only person who actually knows who i am is me