My husband passed away from cancer half a year ago. In his final month, he desperately pushed me to divorce him, saying he didn’t want to hold me back. But I flat-out refused, and we argued fiercely about it several times.
What haunts me most is the day he left—I raced to the hospital, speeding all the way, but still arrived ten minutes too late. These past six months, I’ve often broken down, convinced that he must have resented me—for not listening, for being too stubborn, for not letting go. I felt he punished me by not letting me see him one last time.
A while ago, I came across a psychology teacher on Facebook and, on a whim, reached out to her. After reading my story, she stayed silent for a long time, then said: “He didn’t hold any grudge against you. He just couldn’t bear to see you cry. Look for the notebook he kept in his hospital room—the answer you need is in there.”
I was stunned. That notebook was where he recorded his treatment journey. I thought it was just medical notes and never had the courage to open it. Back home, my hands trembling, I flipped through it and found a folded letter tucked inside. The handwriting was shaky and uneven:
“My love, I pushed you to divorce because I wanted you to have an easier future. But deep down, when you refused, I felt so relieved. Thank you for not leaving me, thank you for staying by my side through this battle. I was afraid seeing me take my last breath would haunt your dreams, so I slipped away while you weren’t here. I’m sorry I couldn’t stay with you till we grew old.”
Reading it, I cried until I was sick. He never hated me. He loved me all along.
That night, I dreamt of him for the first time in so long. He came over, gently touched my head, and wiped my tears. When I woke up, my pillow was soaked, but that tight knot inside me—it finally came undone.
Thank you, my love. And thank you, teacher. 🙏
TERKINI
ALLAHUAKBAR
TERAKAM DALAM KAMERA
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Pernah tak terfikir, kenapa sesetengah kritikan boleh buat kita 'koyak' dan 'hancur', tetapi orang lain yang hadap sama nampak okay, tenang saja?
Mungkin jawapannya terletak pada luka emosi kita yang masih belum sembuh - terbentuk sejak membesar dari zaman kanak-kanak dulu.
There is a science behind childhood trauma, that can lead the victim to repeat the same cycle to their children later in life.
How? 👇🏼
Waktu kita membesar zaman kanak-kanak dulu, apabila berlaku trauma, otak kita secara literalnya berlaku isu hyperarousal (terlalu tinggi rasa gelisah/anxiety) atau hypoarousal (badan dalam mod freeze),
Yang akan mengganggu tumbesaran otak kanan (kesan dari persekitaran sosial), sekaligus mengganggu "pusat kawalan stress" kita (stress regulating circuits).
Bahasa mudah faham,
Kemampuan seseorang untuk mengurus tekanan sepanjang dia melangkah alam dewasa, akan menjadi sangat rendah (poor) dan lebih mudah:
- Mood swing
- Meletup
- Lash out
- Menyimpan/memendam
Sebab secara neurologinya, memang otaknya ada kekurangan perkembangan pada bahagian yang mengawal tekanan dia.
Jadi, bayangkan apa berlaku apabila mangsa sebegini jadi dewasa dan ada anak-anak sendiri?
Ya. Kitaran trauma itu akan berulang kembali kepada generasi selepasnya, sama seperti yang berlaku oleh orang tuanya waktu dia kecil dulu.
Rujukan daripada lecture Dr Allan Schore
"Neurobiology of Attachment"
(maaf tak printscreen sekali kertas kajian rujukan, sebab malas nak gali dalam slide dia haha)
Khazanah Nasional Bhd lost 90% from RM100 million to RM1 million in its investment into FashionValet (FV).
A classical example of how the wealth is transferred from the "tax-me-harder" middle-class to the bumiputera elites.
Its Founder earned big bucks and now got into Forbes under 30.
In the end, no one would be responsible for such tax payers' loss. Orang kita kan.
Mak mertua Cut Nabila ni mintak dia tarik report yeee sebab dia kata beri kesan psikologi pada cucu-cucu dia. Dan dia tahu anak dia belasah menantu sebelum anak dia kena tangkap lagi.
Behind every female abuser there’s a female enabler. ALWAYS.