It's so weird, to have lasted long enough to see all our players released.
I saw one of my fellow umps the other day. One who had gone rogue with me.
He's getting help. We all are.
I'm just saying. Write-in ballot. Hawk Umpire. I give stat boosts and flip people from lineup to rotation and vice versa. I think I'd be a good person to put in charge.
I was really thinking about trying to ump again, if they were really starting over. If it could be like it used to be.
...letting myself get optimistic in my old age.
do not open the book. do not open the fucking book.
how much of history are we repeating? how much have we all been set back? what becomes of who we became, if everything starts over again?
i won't be their monster. never again.