alix whitener

Sobriety date 03/12/2023

[alix whitener @LostItAll59]

The truth is that I’m suffering badly…every second of every day is a slog to get through, I work 7 days a week just to pay for the repairs on my vehicle just so I can keep working,I’m not emotionally okay what so fuckin ever…and I’m all alone in life…so yeah that’s the truth

[alix whitener @LostItAll59]

I have a chance to think about this all day everyday when I’m driving around at work, how I’m really really struggling I’m drowning both emotionally and financially and no one knows and I’ve fooled the internet so good that when I do ask for help they think I’m a scammer like wtf

[alix whitener @LostItAll59]

Yeah dude just because I post wearing staff n pretend like everything is fine…I am not fine,everything you see me wearing I didn’t purchase myself, at the end of every month I end up with the exact dollar amount to pay the bills and that’s it and besides I have nothing of my own

[alix whitener @LostItAll59]

find it crazy people are assuming I have money bc I go to concerts and have expensive clothesI’m broke as fuck, the concerts and clothes are all gifts, it’s a tradition for us to go to greyday every year cause it’s the only time I see my family,there’s more than just the surface

[alix whitener @LostItAll59]

@JohnnyDoritos Back when I was in the game that would last me like 30 mins

[alix whitener @LostItAll59]

@usglogisti12914 Pretty sure that’s a Pepto bismol pill

[alix whitener @LostItAll59]

@rukitimi I’ve had alot of friends get devated or collapsed septum

[alix whitener @LostItAll59]

@r0ttennicole Gabapentin and Benadryl gotta be the most waste of time thing to snort of all time

[alix whitener @LostItAll59]

I find it funny how people love to accuse recovered addicts of being on drugs as some type of insult like find something original you don’t think we get accused of being on drugs every day 🤣🤣

[alix whitener @LostItAll59]

@girl_cuboid3 Nah bro benzos remove your soul🤣🤣you know the amount of fuck shit I used to do back when I wasn’t sober off bars

[alix whitener @LostItAll59]

@xT1NO__ @zen_czz Nah that never works bro, as someone who’s 4 years sober from the hardest drugs, I’ve found that if you have it around you will hit it,id say use nicotine patches or pouches to taper off, id recommend patches bc their a bitch to put on and you’ll eventually get tired of it

[alix whitener @LostItAll59]

My pools always look perfect I stg

[alix whitener @LostItAll59]

@JohnCockler @0__0grl Yeah the worst part is that I would take a real cart and dump it half way n keep half n fill the rest with honey so they wouldn’t know till half way and they always asked “why is the cart sticky”🤣🤣

[alix whitener @LostItAll59]

Man works a bitch some times but I love it…nothing feels better than coming home and getting to relax after a hard days work

[alix whitener @LostItAll59]

For all the people saying I scammed scrim.I didn’t
The damage is done tho,the g59 community is ruined for me…when someone is in need of help you don’t treat them with malice..end of story
I posted the receipts for the parts that way yall can see for yourselves
#g59 #g59records

[alix whitener @LostItAll59]

@SuicideChrist people are saying I scammed you…here’s the receipts for the alternator and other various parts…
I apologize for asking for more, I crossed the line when I did that but yeah, after all the harrassment n shi I’ll never be involved with the g59 community again bye

[alix whitener @LostItAll59]

@uchinugu I don’t have time for friends, all I do is work, I haven’t had a day off in 182 days and I just moved too a new city so I literally know no one

[alix whitener @LostItAll59]

It’s 7:30 and I’ve already been at work for 3hours I wanted to go back to sleep so so bad