N European pagan music; slow, steady, long beats, mournful with pipes and horns. It is a solemn introspective and knowing rousing. Aware. Dreicht. The weight of past and future and determination. Know a people by their songs.
White people do this thing where they show very little anger right up to the breaking point then they break and begin to absolutely freak the fuck out. WW2, Crusades, etc. Leading up to a fist fight, White men get quieter. Opposite of other races who get louder as they get closer to violence. You’re beginning to see White people freak out you just don’t know it yet.
If you think you’re in a magical battle with someone else… most likely you’re not and you just need to realize your an insufferable pratt who needs to get psychological help and know you actually aren’t the center of the universe. If Magic &or mysticism doesn’t make you a more virtuous or balanced individual you are doing it wrong.
Something I have noticed about alcoholics trying to get clean. Their relapses are worse than their worst moment during the first round. And I think that has to do with the shame of failing. Shame is the central player in addiction.
You will be heavily “othered” so long as you refuse to be a sellout. It’s better to realize early on how much of a gift that truly is…
It also makes it easier to connect with other people who share the same values as you, instead of just pretending to!