I look at this screen and I see red.
Thousands of transactions. Losses. Mistakes. Positions I entered too early, held too long, sold too late, chased when I should have waited, and moments where emotion spoke louder than discipline.
Right now, the numbers do not tell the story I intend to finish.
-$1,580 PnL.
-$1,480 realized.
2,900 transactions.
To somebody else, this could look like failure.
To me, it is evidence that I entered an arena I still have to master.
And I refuse to romanticize the losses. Money lost is money lost. Bad decisions are bad decisions. I will not call recklessness “faith,” and I will not call gambling “conviction.” Every mistake has to teach me something, or I paid for nothing.
But this is where my conviction begins.
This will be my biggest wealth transfer of my life.
Not yet.
Because I am still being formed into the man capable of handling it.
a small win to cut the loss today
the tekk here is good but I doubt how uncomfortable the insider wallet holding 13% of the coing and the volume going really slow as shit, it would be better to take P than roundtripping it all
Day 10
no longer doing peak EU session bruh
All the volume is on the stonk bullshit that just rapes the shit out of you in under 5 minutes
And wasting the potential of other good narra that is supposed to run but nope
small loss today, will pick up the same time I used to cook really good at
Day 7
4.33/10 sol
two trades. 4 hours on the scope.
momentum is building up
wins like these are very important to acknowledge, store them as a hard drive.
Peace out, onto the next.
4.3/10 SOL.
need I say anything?
Day 9/30. +0.419 sol
4.86/10 sol
this is a big win this month, and this win alone will be so engrained in my memory that I do nothing but win.
I know I sound delusional, but this is the only way to winning. your mind is hardwired as a goal-seeking mechanism.
it doesn't care what the target is.
Give it "I'm a losing trader" and it finds ways to lose.
Give it "I do nothing but win" and it finds the setups, the patterns, the exits that make it true.
But I wont take the other sharp edge of the sword. Overconfidence.
Peace out, onto the next win.
Day 9/30
4 green days in a row. I'm now breaking all time high on my PNL chart
I just can't imagine what october would look like.
This month has already paid the tuition of what greed resulted me.
And every red day this month paid for a lesson that October won't have to repeat.
The system is the same. The operator is different.
4.6/10 SOL. Only bullish from here.
Day 9/30
4 green days in a row. I'm now breaking all time high on my PNL chart
I just can't imagine what october would look like.
This month has already paid the tuition of what greed resulted me.
And every red day this month paid for a lesson that October won't have to repeat.
The system is the same. The operator is different.
4.6/10 SOL. Only bullish from here.