You want peace of mind, stop twisting the narrative in your favor, stick to the facts, be honest with yourself.
Anxiety is the gap between the stories you tell yourself and what actually happens.
When you are strong, people call you insensitive.
When you are fit, people call you narcissistic.
When you are rich, people call you greedy.
When you are smart, people call you arrogant.
When you are happy, people call you stupid.
Let them do. Just be you. Keep moving.