β infatuated but in love ? This is a first. βit is a scary feeling to feel this deeply and later be rudely awakenedβ¦ I would have been so desensitized when it came to love that now I see shadows everywhere I turn β¦β
the silence lingers for longer than it should. her mind a loud place amongst it. she is feeling insecure which is so unlike her but that is how you know right? that is how you know your feelings arenβt fleeting, right ? She hates this sensation, tried to be rid of it β
β truly.β she laughs, shaking her head almost madly. βI promise I am not this insecure I justβ¦β well, what is the next part of your explanation? ββ¦ I havenβt been in love for a long time.β The case can be made she never really been in love till now. yes she been β
β the reason whyβ¦ somehow she knew but never dared to give a name, a voice to what she felt but it canβt no longer be denied, she can no longer ignore the facts. She was in love with Ingrid and the thought sobers her up completely.
βthat probably makes it worseβ¦β she says unmoving. She allowed herself to be anchored by Ingrid. βSubconsciously thinking about another woman and needing to blurt it out like you did doesnβt make me feel any better.β And she doesnβt want to care. It is not her style. β
β Brigitte has always pride herself on being detached when it came to relationships. no nonsense, no drama, if it worked it worked and if it didnβt well goodbye. She cannot make sense why she is feeling this defensive and struck and hurt when it finally dawn on her β