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dont mind me,
I just let my anger out here

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bila kau nk snap gmbr dgn sesorg tp segan nk ckp, so kau end up snap pemandangan je 😂 #afewdaystogo 😊💕

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Aku kata kat interviewer tu, sy datang ni sebagai satu experience je lah 😅

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Bos : Cuba teka dia buat brp content dekat P** M** W****** sehari???
Me : 15?
Bos : Eh! mana tau? 10 tauuu!!!

Aku dlm hati : ye la aku pon prnh p satu iv ni, minta 15 content sehari.. lps iv, minx aku dtg kerja esk, bila tny gaji, nohh 1.8k!

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Husb yesterday : “klau rezeki kita cuma Aafiyah je ……….”

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Pelik tak bila habis kerja, tak rasa nak balik rumah? Even family semua ada kat rumah.. erm..

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Husb : knp kawan2 awk semua ttba tak nak kawan dgn awk?
Me : sbb sy tak buat apa-apa, tak buat apa apa pun.. contact tak, apa tak…

Ha ha ha betul x?

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While me :

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Well.. just nak share about things happened to me this last few days..
A sudden hormonal changes, cried all day without the willing to stop, then having spotting during ovulation..
Just made me went to check, and yeah thankfully aku pi check, because I know something is WRONGGG

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In the mean time, my mil just asked “syifa pregnant ka?”
Whuttttt???!! Now mmg aku x rasa nak tambah dgn kepenatan menjaga aafiyah and with my current mental health and hormonal changes ni..
And to think that I have low chancesss of tambah anak? Lets not think about it 🫠

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It feels like this year is not my year.

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Aku tahu content mcm tu boleh blow, aku mmg dah expect. Tapi…. The comment itself like A LOT, agak terkejut dengan perpective orang di thread, sangat berbeza kalau banding dgn soc med lain 😅

Terkezut guee

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Weyhhhh aku sangat jarang ya post apa2 kat thread sbb aku tau situ kan jenis random annnn..
Tp entah apa yg merasuki jiwa ku yg sedih, aku pon post la something.. and aku dh trigger people from a few aspect :

1- Tailor
2- Ex-Client
3- Orang yang selalu upah baju raya

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Hari ni semua benda aku nk bitter lahaiii.. nyampah, rasa nk bakar rumah ni hahahaha

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Husb : “Aafiyah tidoq buas pon awk tak sedar”

Iya weyh anak aku tampar tumbuk muka apa semua aku tak sedar ahahahahahaha

Bonda barai ya sekarang.

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Dya kejut tny x lapar ke, nk order apa.. sekali aku dh celik, dya tido pulak aihhh

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At the end, I don’t think sahm is for me. Tak kerja boleh buat aku overthinking.
Dah la mood swing always comes and goes.
Let me work! But I need a chill one haha

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My mil just asked shuben why still hantar Aafiyah to taska when I’ll become jobless..
Terdiam sat, dia speechless xtau nak goreng apa..
Aku lagi speechless ahahaha
Takkan nak habaq yg mental aku tak kuat nak jaga anak sendiri?
Nanti mil fikir apa pulak 😅

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Right now I want some time to focus on myself.
Nak declutter the whole house.
Try to change our life style, nak kena start masak healthy food.
Belajar prepare makanan untuk Aafiyah.
And back and forth to the hospital. Hurmm

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@iamdieforyouuu Enoki

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Random thought at night : Am I just a mother?