being suicidal doesnโt mean that Iโm going to kill myself. being suicidal is having this inexplainable ache while youโre living. Itโs waiting for your life to end, and wishing that you didnโt have to carry on. Having this ache, and incapability to feel happy living, doesnโt mean that I am going to kill myself; it just means that I wouldnโt mind dying