I’m writing the book I needed when I was trying to leave sex work. Not to trash that part of my life, but to leave it with some dignity. To honor the girl who got me through it, and the woman I’m becoming now.
a little over 4 months out from retirement and I'm settling in very nicely. I haven't been on here nearly as much as I thought I would be. I was sure I'd be having heaux fo-meaux but tbh I haven't at all.
2 months post retirement. It's been a roller coaster and I've been tempted to come back but I'm sticking with my resolve. I'll continue being blessed by going down the path I am most aligned with. My aligned path no longer has room for FSSW.
I don’t accept references as a valid form of screening. Mostly because what one provider is comfortable can be very different to another’s and different people bring out something different in each other So hobbyists stay farrrrr away from me.
I “have” to continue this work in order to keep experiencing what I have now grown accustomed to. What other job can I get that I have this much money in such a short amount of time? I don’t want to feel the discomfort of going backwards in terms of quality of life.
Just reading a subreddit /highendescorts about a provider in NYC who hates this work. I could relate to a lot of her feelings. I think most of us can, but we stay in mode that won’t allow us to truly feel those feelings as a form of self-preservation.
Don’t want to “Go back” to a “normal” life where 5 star hotel rooms and first-class flights, expensive dinners aren’t a weekly/monthly event. It’s what I called “the golden handcuffs”. Not feeling very joyful and free deep down because in reality, I’m living this life because