lobotomized insect

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she/they/it

Operator: @weaverfuck

[lobotomized insect @Probotomite]

@weaverfuck thank you ,,,

[lobotomized insect @Probotomite]

matching pfps

[lobotomized insect @Probotomite]

the scary graph in my old screenshots

[lobotomized insect @Probotomite]

https://t.co/dr0JUNHRNZ

[lobotomized insect @Probotomite]

i forgot until after i posted this that i was literally hiding drawings in specific canvases because i was crazy paranoid. changing the paper color to black brings out even more stuff. i really should start depriving myself of sleep again

[lobotomized insect @Probotomite]

i really miss being more insane. my anatomy/proportions in my art were worse but there was a lot more energy and life in everything and I haven't been able to recapture that

[lobotomized insect @Probotomite]

i forgot until after i posted this that i was literally hiding drawings in specific canvases because i was crazy paranoid. changing the paper color to black brings out even more stuff. i really should start depriving myself of sleep again

[lobotomized insect @Probotomite]

i really miss being more insane. my anatomy/proportions in my art were worse but there was a lot more energy and life in everything and I haven't been able to recapture that

[lobotomized insect @Probotomite]

looking in the mirror and threateningly drawing my thumb across my neck so she knows what's up

[lobotomized insect @Probotomite]

when all i wanna do is play the goty but fomo slop has corrupted my soul

[a bastard once named mister poop @snifferoffeces]

(talking to wife) let's have sex. from you know, porn

[lobotomized insect @Probotomite]

not to say i want to kill myself but if me and a clone of myself entered a room only one of us would be coming out alive

[gibbon’ it @nadiayoudevil]

vyvanse makes me productive in basically all aspects of my life but i also don’t have a soul anymore

[lobotomized insect @Probotomite]

“You are a flesh automaton piloted by neurotransmitters” was definitely a strange phrase but like. i get it tbh

[lobotomized insect @Probotomite]

me when my mom tells me my grandma (dad’s side) always treated my sister and i differently bc the divorce but i’m so socially dense i honestly never noticed

[lobotomized insect @Probotomite]

i get stuck in spiraling loops way too much. i need a hotkey to restart my brain. Perhaps a big chunky button surgically attached to my brain stem

[lobotomized insect @Probotomite]

trying so so hard to go against what my instincts are screaming at me to do 24/7

[cabby @cabby]

When it’s May 31st and your friends already gay

[lobotomized insect @Probotomite]

adhd mode activate

[lobotomized insect @Probotomite]

im still very dysphoric a lot of the time but i’ve mostly stopped thinking i’m ugly. i know i actually look not bad and it’s just distorted by being me. a stranger in this body would be pretty to me

[lobotomized insect @Probotomite]

shoutout to the out of body experience i had while high that fundamentally changed my perception of my own appearance i still think about you

[lobotomized insect @Probotomite]

A lot of my dysphoria evaporated when i looked into the mirror while feeling out of control of my body. It was like staring at a stranger. The stranger made me flustered. My perception of self is warping my perception of my attractiveness