that's what I keep saying. watch Fight Club. watch James Bond. watch Into the Wild. you'll start acting like the main character and over time adapt certain traits as your own. you're brainwashing yourself for a better life. use movies, but use them delicately.
don't know who needs to hear this, but start living. the days are flying by, and all you do is work, pay bills, and stress. enjoy what you can - walks, sunsets, music, laughter and nature. joy doesn't have to be expensive. you deserve it.
"the success you've been looking for is hidden in the work you've been avoiding". that quote is crazy because it applies to all forms of gains. financial, fitness, relationships. the life you want for yourself is literally waiting on you, you just have to put in the work first.