Mika sat with his arms against his legs, leant forward rather than his usual upright and straight back posture, rubbing his palms together in what seemed to be a nervous and anxious manner.
โI do not seek forgiveness as I know I am not worthy of it. At all. I understand now -
Live that lie . . . You . . You are not your father and you do not need to act like him . . Your trauma doesnโt belong to be taken out on your children . . I know that well . . โ
He hissed a bit , almost snarling .
โ you are loosing your Daughter . . And I support her . โ
- her. I may also be losing Tristan. This has affected him too. I thought I was protecting him but I ended up hurting him too. I do not wish to be like my father and not have a connection with them. I know itโs a long shot and itโs going to take some healing but I do wish to -
- doing in all this. I never meant to damage our children. I tried my hardest to protect them both and it felt like it was falling apart right in my hands and I lost all sense of judgment..โ
Mika made sure to look at Hyun as he spoke and listened to him, no interruption no dismissive behaviours at all.
Once he heard the pathetic laugh and the last comment Mika lowered his head slightly as he glanced away.
โMy only explanation is that I was afraid. I was afraid -
This even if i did basically abuse my own child . . . I had an explanation of why . . Not a , my children will be better than their grandfather . "
He gave a sorta pathetic sounding laugh .
" They are your children Mikaela . . They are not toys . They are not robots . "
- with her being an alpha and a hell hound she would become engulfed by the monster that we hell hounds can become. The trauma of my own father and the things I witnessed growing up.. it incredibly altered my judgment.โ
He sighed as he looked to Hyun again.
โI admit my wrong-
Hearing the strained tone wasnโt a surprise to him, sighing softly to himself as he sat down in a chair close to the other.
โI uh.. I donโt know how to explain myself.. for everything thatโs come out lately..โ
He knew the others presence before he even spoke . .
" yes . . No need to worry about it . "
He didnt want to side on anyone's side at the second , however , his tone was definitely strained .
@henshinhxro The last time they had spoken was before his father had belittled and abused Mikaโs children. So no they were not on speaking terms at all. And no one even knew where Mikaโs father was any more.
Mika had given up on his previous thoughts and made his way to the green house, offering Hyun a half smile upon seeing him there.
โDid you make your way here on your own?โ
After dealing with the paperwork on his desk he leaned back in his chair, running a hand over his face with a huff of breath before just staring at the ceiling in thought.
This all definitely should have been resolved when Rue was still a child. Before anything got out of hand. Before he became so controlling of her.
His wounds are fine. They just take longer to heal thanks to Rueโs hell hound form. They didnโt hurt.
No it wouldnโt be bad. He too knew he had been in the wrong the whole time but had always been too much of a coward to admit it.
He knows Rue and everyone else has all the right to upset and angry with him.
He raised her to suppress everything she was. To suppress everything that made her who she was. He forced her to be a carer for Tristan and when she failed he had never let her live it down.
He had traumatised and mentally and internally chained her from who she could have been.
@henshinhxro It didnโt go well at all.
It ended up in a huge beast fight.
Though Mika came out with more knowledge as to why Rue was feeling the was she was.
He had learnt he had damaged her in his methods of raising her.
Returning from his talk with Rue looking slightly disheveled with a few cuts and marks from the encounter.
Yes he had already tried to heal the wounds. They were much worse before he tried healing them. A hell hound injuring another hell hound left marks that healed slowly.
He let out a reserved sigh as he stepped closer to the door with a frown.
โYes she.. definitely needs to release some of the tension thatโs swelling up in her heart.. I only hope our talk gives her a slight relief..โ
There was a chuckle from him .
โ I wish you luck . . Sometimes she really should go get out and let herself lose . . Iโm sure SeungGyo will be her release . . He deserves something good . โ