Im starting my 6th day in here,,? I feel so miserable, and just not wanting to do anything. I've been mainly coming in and out of consciousness, since facing the reality of my situation straight on would lead me to a spiral and freaking out.
Next week i'll be admitted to the hospital for a stem cell transplant to get rid of my lymphoma and now that the date is so close reality is finally hitting me. Before the thought of it wasn't anything special but now I'm honestly feeling pretty scared.