All I want to say is that you are not a bad person at all don't blame yourself please π₯Ίπ₯Ίπ₯Ί.
You are a good, kind and lovely person.
I love you
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but once you realize this, you will do what it takes to gain that good heart of yours back from a world that made you so cold in the first place.
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you are not a bad person. you only believe that you are, because life made you go through bad times and it made you turn to bad decisions to defend and ease yourself from the pain. and all this make you feel guilty.
and so its easy to label yourself as bad but its okay to feel like this. just know that you are not a bad person at all. it shows that you are deeply a good person at heart, because you've been craving for goodness all your life when all you got was badness.