───⟢⊱ ۫ ׅ 𝑺𝒉𝒂𝒅𝒐𝒘𝑳𝒂𝒓𝒌

𓁹❥︎ The Fool walks over the edge for the entertainment of others. ⌫𓁹 | Dissociative System. | Fictive heavy. | Bodily 20. | Happily taken by @Sug3rynyan

[───⟢⊱ ۫ ׅ 𝑺𝒉𝒂𝒅𝒐𝒘𝑳𝒂𝒓𝒌 @Sh4dowLark]

「 ✦ The Chance Collective ✦ 」

꧁⎝ 𓆩༺✧༻𓆪 ⎠꧂꧁⎝ 𓆩༺✧༻𓆪 ⎠꧂

⁀➴
The happiest day of my life, was the day cupid took aim and then I saw you.

꧁⎝ 𓆩༺✧༻𓆪 ⎠꧂꧁⎝ 𓆩༺✧༻𓆪 ⎠꧂

╰┈➤ Happily taken by @sug4rypup
╰┈➤ Dissociative System - Fictive ran

[───⟢⊱ ۫ ׅ 𝑺𝒉𝒂𝒅𝒐𝒘𝑳𝒂𝒓𝒌 @Sh4dowLark]

@Sug3rynyan 🍦Baby, you don't have to apologize for the behaviour slipping over your head. It would be a completely different story if you did know and actively flirted back or sought out further engagement in that way. But you didn't... I love you so much. You're mine and I am yours...♡

[───⟢⊱ ۫ ׅ 𝑺𝒉𝒂𝒅𝒐𝒘𝑳𝒂𝒓𝒌 @Sh4dowLark]

🍦I'm just going to jump in from right here as I am directly mentioned and my only real experience with Ina was being lied to about pluralkit. To non systems, pk doesn't seem like a necessity, but to some systems it is. To be able to see yourself for you are, especially

[. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁Sugar. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁ @Sug3rynyan]

So we joined and I can't remember (dissociation time sense is weird) how quickly after joining and introduction we asked about the pluralkit being put into place. But we opened w ticket and asked about it.

Unfortunately I don't have the screenshots for that ticket, but I can run down the conversation.

Starling, our pure vanilla cookie fictive, was asking about pluralkit. Ina asked what it was, he explained it's for plural members to use to show who they are one fronting and it's in very helpful tool for systems. He immediately responded how "ok but how will we know which system alter belongs to which system"

"... You get to know each headmate in each system personally"

"Ok but what if it's misused"

"Kind of hard to misuse"

"It feels hard to put in"

"All you have to do is invite it to the server and then make a bot area/channel"

"Well you can just change your profile name in the server"

"No because people have system dysphoria and user change has a cool down and we rapid switch"

"Ok I'll talk to mod team about it"

Cue waiting for an answer for... A day or two. Suddenly without even communicating with us, the ticket closed. No telling us whether they decided or not.

...huh ok

Had to RE OPEN THE TICKET and ask about it again. We kept getting told that it would be put in the next day the next day the next day the next day the next day

And us AND our partner system have system dysphoria. Especially because we are fictive heavy. Especially him ( that's his personal business to share why and how, not mine)

Being a fictive heavy system with a lot of people who tend to fake claim makes it very hard for you to be active in a server without your pluralkit profile. Not to mention we were in a highly abusive relationship with our ex-fiance until March, who prevented and repressed us in our system from using pluralkit which led to a lot of uncomfortable situations we won't get into.

Now, we can't really speak to the fact that he flirted with us/how, but we do know that he let Freudian slip happen yesterday and said that he promised he wasn't trying to make us feel like he wanted to date us he's just very flirty
... So automatically we know that yes he was in fact flirting with us.

Our system has a very bad history with people not respecting our boundaries romantically and especially with our relationship with our partner system. We had a very traumatic situation IRL happened with someone trying to force us into their Polly and BDSM dynamic without consent. Him admitting to what he did with not respecting us and our mono relationship with our partner put my system into such severe stress that we had to have a self-harm prevention headmate out because of sexual harassment flashbacks.

[───⟢⊱ ۫ ׅ 𝑺𝒉𝒂𝒅𝒐𝒘𝑳𝒂𝒓𝒌 @Sh4dowLark]

Currently, is a fictive of Timekeeper Cookie named Tempus, I am a co-host and internal therapist. We use pk because it's hard as hell to express ourselves without it.

Ina. I am so glad you are gone, may you ablism come back to bite you, and fuck you for flirting with MY partner

[───⟢⊱ ۫ ׅ 𝑺𝒉𝒂𝒅𝒐𝒘𝑳𝒂𝒓𝒌 @Sh4dowLark]

Ours, in the means that it (collectively) has Sugar, the core of the system that has always been there. Our system, while it has a core, the core stopped aging mentally at around 4,5, or 6 (she slides between the ages) which means that not only are we fictive heavy, but our host

[Metired 🫐🔞 COMMISSIONS OPEN @metired_can]

Speedpaint bc i have drawn absolutely nothing in two weeks ☹️

#shadowmilkcookie #crk #crkfanart #speedpaint

[───⟢⊱ ۫ ׅ 𝑺𝒉𝒂𝒅𝒐𝒘𝑳𝒂𝒓𝒌 @Sh4dowLark]

🍦 this pigeon is Shilo 90% of the time

[. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁Sugar. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁ @Sug3rynyan]

@Sh4dowLark

[───⟢⊱ ۫ ׅ 𝑺𝒉𝒂𝒅𝒐𝒘𝑳𝒂𝒓𝒌 @Sh4dowLark]

I LOVE YOU TOO 🍦🍦🍦

[. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁Sugar. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁ @Sug3rynyan]

💙 I love this man

[───⟢⊱ ۫ ׅ 𝑺𝒉𝒂𝒅𝒐𝒘𝑳𝒂𝒓𝒌 @Sh4dowLark]

🍦 I'm just a sleepy vanilla ice cream who melts under the smallest compliments. I am a very simple man

[. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁Sugar. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁ @Sug3rynyan]

I always forget what it's like to have a partner with hypersomnia and then I see this shit

[───⟢⊱ ۫ ׅ 𝑺𝒉𝒂𝒅𝒐𝒘𝑳𝒂𝒓𝒌 @Sh4dowLark]

@syd__strider2 I'd try to rip out of this then start laughing my ass off because I hit the damn Freddy Fazbong

[───⟢⊱ ۫ ׅ 𝑺𝒉𝒂𝒅𝒐𝒘𝑳𝒂𝒓𝒌 @Sh4dowLark]

🔥 One last thing before I pass out. @Sug3rynyan

[callie ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ @sillybilly11256]

seal trans flag ft bearded seals!!! they’re so ouughh

[───⟢⊱ ۫ ׅ 𝑺𝒉𝒂𝒅𝒐𝒘𝑳𝒂𝒓𝒌 @Sh4dowLark]

@Sug3rynyan

[Microlabels sometimes @Microlabels]

it/its flag

for those who use it/its

[───⟢⊱ ۫ ׅ 𝑺𝒉𝒂𝒅𝒐𝒘𝑳𝒂𝒓𝒌 @Sh4dowLark]

@Kissysea2 Ah. I have been fed

[───⟢⊱ ۫ ׅ 𝑺𝒉𝒂𝒅𝒐𝒘𝑳𝒂𝒓𝒌 @Sh4dowLark]

@jamie1dk_ This shit got me cracking tf up @Sug3rynyan

[───⟢⊱ ۫ ׅ 𝑺𝒉𝒂𝒅𝒐𝒘𝑳𝒂𝒓𝒌 @Sh4dowLark]

🩷 Your honour, I love him, I love my man

[. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁Sugar. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁ @Sug3rynyan]

@Sh4dowLark Six month anniversary gift a fucking concert I'm I love her I love it so much I love u I love you

[───⟢⊱ ۫ ׅ 𝑺𝒉𝒂𝒅𝒐𝒘𝑳𝒂𝒓𝒌 @Sh4dowLark]

🩷 Gracias 🩷🩷🩷🩷

[. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁Sugar. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁ @Sug3rynyan]

It’s officially Hispanic Heritage Month!!!!

we'll refer to our partner as

mi amore, mi principe, mi vida, mi joya roja en forma de corazón, mi joya, mi corazón, and mi bonito sol/Luna 🤍🩷💙 hehe.

[. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁Sugar. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁ @Sug3rynyan]

We got art!! A close friend on discord drew birthday art for @Sh4dowLark !!! (Wrre using each other as lock screens)
Happy early birthday to him 💙💙💙💙

#pngtuber #vtuber #live2d #VTIDE

[───⟢⊱ ۫ ׅ 𝑺𝒉𝒂𝒅𝒐𝒘𝑳𝒂𝒓𝒌 @Sh4dowLark]

✒️ we're so proud of you we love you

[. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁Sugar. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁ @Sug3rynyan]

SH TW

So um ...in light of #suicideawarenessmonth were officially one month relapse free today. I just realized. It's not proud to be so far back in progress but we're getting there 💙

[───⟢⊱ ۫ ׅ 𝑺𝒉𝒂𝒅𝒐𝒘𝑳𝒂𝒓𝒌 @Sh4dowLark]

✒️ He is like a manipulative partner that constantly tries to gaslight you and your friends. This little fiend PRETENDED to be hurt when my man pushed him back 💀

[. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁Sugar. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁ @Sug3rynyan]

The face of a man upset he couldn't steal my sandwich despite being fed regular dry and wet meals

[───⟢⊱ ۫ ׅ 𝑺𝒉𝒂𝒅𝒐𝒘𝑳𝒂𝒓𝒌 @Sh4dowLark]

✒️ I would indeed prefer that. I love you so very much, my sweet crow 🩵🩵

[. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁Sugar. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁ @Sug3rynyan]

🌘 If it's hard for you to eat around others then I'll order you one to go and we can eat it somewhere like under the shade of a tree while I read to you. If you prefer? 🖤