LeAnn Smith

The teaching chapter has been closed. So what's next?

[LeAnn Smith @SmithStartsOver]

As my baby girl nears her first birthday, I think about all that has happened in the past year. She's so wonderful. Such a blessing to me. I'm going to try write something about this first year. It goes too quickly. My heart trembles with joy and sadness.

[LeAnn Smith @SmithStartsOver]

Maybe it's a good thing I'm so busy and exhausted. It helps distract me from all the people who supposedly care about me but don't seem to care to talk to me.

[LeAnn Smith @SmithStartsOver]

Seriously, how do parents get stuff done after the babies/kids go to sleep? I'm too exhausted to get anything done despite thinking I can be productive. Frustrating.

[LeAnn Smith @SmithStartsOver]

Does anyone else go through food phases? I ate a million pickles for about 3 months. I also went through a phase of eating ranch salads for like 4 months. It's like food fixations that ebb and flow. Is that normal?

[LeAnn Smith @SmithStartsOver]

I absolutely hate being sick. Being sick with a baby is even worse. Mothers deserve to never get sick as long as they take care of their children.

[LeAnn Smith @SmithStartsOver]

Seriously, how do sick moms do it? I'm so tired and nauseous with headaches and lightheadedness. How am I supposed to be a good mom? Days like today or so hard. I just want to crawl in bed.

[LeAnn Smith @SmithStartsOver]

Silly statement: I want to have the best day of my life. The day I had Blair will always be one of the best days of my life. I selfishly want a day for me full of wonderful things.

[LeAnn Smith @SmithStartsOver]

Still feeling foggy and lightheaded, going home to rest. Is this allergies? No energy. Feeling tired all the time. #nobueno

[LeAnn Smith @SmithStartsOver]

Omg. I have been exhausted all day. I feel so weak, like drugged. It's pretty hard to manage a 10-month-old feeling like this. I better wake up feeling tons better. The beautiful weather is salt in the wound.

[LeAnn Smith @SmithStartsOver]

In bed before 9 pm on a Saturday night. Wow, do I feel old. However, I had a very taxing day, and tomorrow will probably be the same. Sleep is urgently needed.

[LeAnn Smith @SmithStartsOver]

Sometimes I wish someone would just understand. Don't assume, don't question, don't argue. Just see it as I do or understand it from my perspective.

[LeAnn Smith @SmithStartsOver]

What good are taste buds when a congested nose removes the flavor?

[LeAnn Smith @SmithStartsOver]

Shaming me for taking my baby girl to daycare when she was sick doesn't help my concern for my sick daughter. I know one doctor I'll be avoiding as much as possible.

[LeAnn Smith @SmithStartsOver]

There are questions I wish I could ask my grandmas now as a mother/woman in her late thirties. #toolate

[LeAnn Smith @SmithStartsOver]

LeAnn is struggling these days. I'm feeling pulled in a million directions. I feel like I'm failing everything and everyone. I hope it's temporary.

[LeAnn Smith @SmithStartsOver]

These stories worry me to no end. No one warned me that becoming a mom meant worrying literally 24/7 about all the possible ways harm could come to my baby girl.

[Des Moines Register @DMRegister]

Catholic influencer shares death of 5-year-old son from 'severe' flu https://t.co/ZugOv0ay51

[LeAnn Smith @SmithStartsOver]

Who else got 10 hours of sleep? It's amazing. I needed it so badly. Bless Blair for sleeping in too. I was up twice in the night - once for Diesel and once for Blair, but sleeping in until 9:30 am is so rare. Happy New Year!!

[LeAnn Smith @SmithStartsOver]

I'm so happy that I left teaching 4+ years ago. If I were still teaching while trying to be a good mom to Blair, it would be a catastrophe. I'm tired and stressed enough now. If I were still teaching, I would be crying every night and probably on medication.

[LeAnn Smith @SmithStartsOver]

Losing your sense of smell and taste due to a cold is one of the most frustrating things according to me.

[LeAnn Smith @SmithStartsOver]

I feel robbed of my Christmas as I feel like crap. It's such a fun, busy day, but when you feel like death warmed up, it's hard to enjoy anything. I hope to feel better soon.