Kinda ironic that just when I was starting to feel mentally well enough to break my self-imposed and self-destructive social isolation the whole dang world went into lockdown but that's okay we still out here tryna get better stay safe friends ❤️❤️
weed is absolutely NOT addictive (until you try to stop smoking it 24 fucking /7 ha ha ha)
the popular paradigm that weed isn't habit-forming is harmful (for dumbasses like me 🙂)
It tears me apart that my excuse is always "I'm sorry, I've been struggling with my mental health" but the reality is that I'm always struggling with my mental health, and the voice that wants me to do well is often so much more quiet than the one that wants to kill me.
Recovery is weird sometimes I know the things I'm doing that are making things worse and I know what I need to do to make them better but the distance between those two points feels insurmountable even though I know it isn't.