@NoniSturge Thanks! 💜 You've got me beat on the berry quantity though, they're so beautiful! Apparently you're not supposed to water them from above when flowering as it washes the pollen off! May be something more bonsai specific but makes sense I guess.
@MonkeyBallTweet Brain be braining. It's also fine to feel poop, it will pass. If you can take a little walk somewhere it'll help, change of surroundings often helps get me out of these times.