my whole life my mom was all "no let me do it for you" and simultaneously like "why dont you know how to do that? youre old enough to be doing it yourself. i shouldnt have to do everything for you!" GIRL YOU NEVER TAUGHT ME HOW TO DO ANYTHING !!!!!!!!!!
before gaining system awareness I really was just like wow I talk to myself a lot and have such a bad memory and also happen to not feel like “myself” sometimes..Haha.. hah Wonder why that is
if you have a disorder that makes you experience multiple subjective realities you are going to have to get a lot better at accepting that you probably are always going to both believe and not believe you have DID. it comes with the territory.
personally i believe a lot of systems with higher alter counts who often "introject" with an alter that only says 4 things ever and then disappears actually just recycle the constituent parts and they go back into a pool of uncoagulated fragments until they combine enough again
“I’m just making up all my symptoms and headmates” okay even if you where, Viktor, the level of maladaptive coping that would be to actually experience said symptoms because you convinced yourself you have them is insane and would still be an issue.