Staring out at this lake is the closest to tranquility I’ve felt in weeks. Just the vast emptiness in front of me. I wish I could go out to the middle of it and be surrounded by the peace. My brain and my heart aren’t cut out for the life I’ve been trying to live.
Been deactivating and reactivating a lot. Mental health hasn’t been doing well. I’m struggling with accepting things I never thought I deserved. I feel like I’m not good enough for a lot of people in my life, and trying to not run away out of fear is hard.