My growth came when I realized I didn't wanna be a "nice" person anymore. Nice got me: stressed, disrespected and used. I'm a kind person. I'm an authentic person. There's a difference.
I’m still healing. & I dont just mean healing from draining relationships or heartbreaks.. I’m healing from the mistakes I made in the past, my family issues, friendship issues, failing myself, disappointments I received, from expectations I couldn't reach
“why do you keep bringing up the past” because it traumatized me.
and i told you that.
you apologized
and i forgave you.
but the trauma doesn’t just go away
and i told you that.
I'm kind of an absent friend like I will love you with my whole heart and go out of my way to give you any help you need, but I tend to live in my own world and suck at keeping up communication, and I’m really sorry to anyone who takes that personally.
If you often have to avoid speaking your truth and feelings to keep the peace with someone, then they are not for you. Saying how you feel will never ruin a real connection. You deserve peace. Prioritize your mental health and nervous system. Walk away from walking on eggshells.