I wasn’t born frail, nor was I born with any illness.
Ever since I was little, I was continuously abused. The parts of my body hidden beneath my clothes were covered in bruises where no one could see.
One day, something happened that my body simply couldn’t endure any longer. My heart stopped, and I was rushed to the hospital for the very first time.
When I finally woke up, I was left with a heart condition, along with many other lasting complications—functional movement disorders affecting my right arm and left leg, Complex PTSD, and dissociative mutism.
I can’t sleep, and when I do, nightmares haunt me. Loud noises, yelling, and even ordinary things around me can trigger dissociative episodes. More recently, I was also diagnosed with vertebrobasilar insufficiency (VBI). None of these were things I was born with.
That’s why I truly believe I can let go of these burdens, one by one. I believe I can heal, and I continue rehabilitation and treatment because I refuse to give up.
This X account was originally created to keep me connected—to stop me from losing the part of me that is still human. I usually don’t talk to anyone in my daily life, so somehow, this has become the one place where I can write things like this, even though I can barely speak in real life.
Patreon is my sanctuary. It’s the one place where I feel I can share everything that’s in my mind, my art, and everything that makes me who I am.
I’ll keep doing my best.
I’ll keep living with everything I have.
I hope you’ll continue to stay with me on this journey.