I once had a patient that I delivered who prior to delivery was bubbly, happy and excited to meet her baby. After delivery she cried, and cried, and cried, and cried. It broke me. For the few hours I watched her before I transferred her to postpartum, she wouldn’t stop crying about how hard that delivery was and how she had nothing left to give. She cried for hours, she didn’t want to see or hold her baby. She was so sad and 4hrs later wouldn’t stop crying. I had to order a psychiatric consult for her cos I knew she was gonna have a hard time at home. Checked on her the next day and she was still crying. Her husband was so loving and supportive by her side the whole time, yet she couldn’t stop crying. She was traumatized. I’ll never forget her. Sometimes the “regret” is instant, other times it’s postpartum and years after. Your feelings are very valid.
One thing about God? He won’t just rescue you. He’ll rebuild you so beautifully that people won’t believe you were the one who went through that kind of pain.